31, Like any other :)

Unlike the past years, or maybe past two years,
I'm spending the last day of the year,
physically, ALONE.
Though I'm not, spiritually.
Because I know I'm not. :)





This afternoon, I planned to go out
to have my hair trimmed and maybe walk around the town.
However, I was still feeling a little unwell
and my dad gave me a few more instructions on the task
that he has given during this holiday.
So, I stayed home and completed it in no time. *tak malu*
hahahaha.




Then, later in the evening, my mom wanted spaghetti for dinner
and asked me to cook the dinner for her.
So, I went out to the Giant Hypermarket to get some groceries done.
Before I step out of my house, I noticed that the evening
was beautiful and relaxing, although the wind was blowing not-so-gently.
However, the journey from my place to the hypermarket was short
because I was walking so quickly, because I saw some dogs wandering on the road,
and some people were looking at me.
Not being paranoid, but it is better to be alert
especially when I was alone, right?
So, I got my groceries done :

(1) Prego Sauce "fresh mushroom"
(2) Yoghurt drink (strawberry flavor)
(3) Kinder Bueno *aaaah~* and yes, I can hear the hallelujah chorus singing in my head
(4) Butterscotch bread
(5) Jelly sticks! *YUM!*



Came back home and started to cook my spaghetti.
I couldn't bring my laptop to my kitchen, to prevent from getting the oil stains on it.
So, I put on my "Julie & Julia" 's soundtrack on the media player in my phone,
and it was perfect.
I was totally in the mood of cooking, and everything seemed to be right on its track.
And when everything was done,  nobody came to the dinner,
and YES, that includes my MOTHER,
who asked me to cook it.
In the end, I ate it all by myself. Grr.



But, that didn't ruin my last day of 2009.
The spaghetti was actually delicious and I enjoyed myself every single bit of it.
The kinder bueno was totally the-o-word,
almost like the daim cake I ate at IKEA   boy I want to eat that DAIM cake again!!!!!!
and
the Jelly sticks, YUM.
*note to self  :   Get at least 3 packets before I get up to KL. It's a must!!*




The night was ordinary, just like every other day in every year.
That's how it should be, in my mind.
No, there will be no overview of my 2009.
I believe, most things that are necessarily to be spoken, is stated.
And I know, there will be times that I will start dwelling in my past,
and things will be spilled out in time :)






::  p/s  ::
Btw, I forgotten to get to Baskin Robbins again!!!
It's 31st of the month! OMG!
Next month, YES. MUST. LOL. :D

Random thoughts (3)

I'm not sure if this is how should I feel, now in particular
as it is NYE today.
Or maybe I'm just too easily influenced, especially by songs.
For one whole song, I can be so hyped up, and I just wanna dance.
Drowning into the crazy tunes and beats, it's just too good to experience.
Then, when it switched to something calm,
or even worse, some really emo songs, slow ones,
I will just stay on my chair/the sofa/the floor,
and give a blank stare, till the song is over and something really upbeat comes.



Well, that also happens when I was looking into my past,
reviewing my memories, and suddenly remember something.
Even when the memory is not really pleasant or happy
and I was listening to something which is quite on the contrary,
I wouldn't feel so bad.


And when that happens, I'm either already in my own world,
or waiting something to change my mood at the moment.
Sometimes when something familiar caught my attention,
I'd like to stare at it,  for how long I may take,
I'd still like to stare at it, because somehow
that's where I get my inspirations from.

In turmoil...

It's a new day,

even though half of the day has officially gone.

The sky, looked like the one we look up during evening hours,

for the past few days

and

honestly, I cannot explain why am I feeling this.

Then again, I cannot explain what exactly am I feeling,

especially when it's for days already.

And, I find that I'm back to the one that who's so self-absorbed, selfish and uncaring, self-centered,

and all I can do, is think about myself.

Which is why, I am in turmoil and in a struggle of my own life.

I am not really making it complicated

but to figure out what exactly that I am looking for in my life.

Why is this happening again, low self-esteem again?

This has to end. Seriously.
By the way, I think i need to be on hiatus.
Till then. :)

I find that, the more the days has gone,

the older I grow *which is not really that important*

and

the more feelings I have learned, yet unable to explain.

And when I decided to analyze it, it's nothing.

Which tells me that I am always feeling those unnecessary feelings,

or I am simply numb, that I cannot interpret myself anymore.

Or, I have lost myself, bit by bit.

I cannot rely on exploring per se again and again.

Because every time I do this, the next day, or maybe longer than that,

I'll have to do it again.

Smile :)

some random picture

:)
I like, can? :)

Good morning world :D


I'm up, earlier than the usual days
when I'm home. *those days in melacca doesn't count*
I got up from my bed, feelin' fresh and opened the door
that connects my room to the laundry room behind,
and I did some house chores.


And now I'm sitting in front of my laptop,
listening to random songs.
Just when I was really enjoying my morning,
that song appeared,
"Empty" by The Click Five.
It was a song between me and him, not many people knew about that.
Somehow, my intuition was to skip that song, and I pressed "next".
My heart did feel better after I did what I thought it was right.
On second thoughts, those things that I will have to face in the future, are inevitable.
Sooner or later, I will have to overcome them.
So I thought, why not NOW?
Then, I clicked back on that specific song, and I listened through it.




It wasn't that hard. Really.
I just need some time.
Another long period of time, I suppose.
But it's okay, Jeannie.
I can do this.
:)
Smile :)

Right, it's all

You know,

the beauty of positivity,

shines through every corner of your heart.

Before you know it,

the day has been going great,

despite the insignificant disturbance,

and

you're still feeling great and motivated.

This is how I feel today.

I finally got started with what is left undone earlier,

the tasks my dad has left me.

And when I'm doing it,

I'm listening to

500 Days of Summer's

Original soundtrack.

Most of them are nice,

especially

Regina Spektor's "Us".

It's almost like a gumption,

I feel so much better

and motivated.

:)

Right, it's all,

right it's all,

right it's all right.

------         "Hero"

                 by

Regina Spektor

::  p/s  ::

Then again,

I need my piano.

Or piano that is not mine..

I just need one to play something.

Random thoughts (2)

It seems to me,

I’m taking a slow stroll in my past.

For instance, I was sitting on the same bed with my mom,

in the ward.

I used to do that when I was a kid, and I missed that.

Because I cannot even remember when was the last time 

I sit beside my mom like this, and with her caressing my back.

I really missed it.

Went to the same hospital, at a different time,

and for the same purpose.

I actually cannot remember which floor did I come for the previous time.

However, it’s nothing different.

This time, is somehow different, in a way that,

I’m given more freedom and I’m happily obliged

with my purpose being here.

And add to that, I have my laptop with me,

and some movies inside. :D

This gotta be good.

Every thing’s gonna be fine.

Just grin :)

Mmm

Homeeee.

'nuff said.

It's time to pamper myself,

again.

:D

::  p/s  ::

(1)Will be going to Melacca on Tuesday

for 3 days,

that means I will only spend ONE day

in Kluang for this week.

Must bring more movies/DVDs up.
Otherwise I'll be bored to death, like literally.

T_____T

(2) Chocolate didn't work. How??

(3) Love watching dramas. :D

Few of my best days of my life :D

Hehehehe.
Haven't update myself for.. maybe about two days.
:)
Anyway, here it is. :)





Thursday  3rd December 2009

          

          I got up early on that day, around 9 something in the morning. I planned to leave around 12 and found myself 2 hours free to spend. So, I proceeded to procrastinate for more than that. LOL. I freaked out when I saw the time was almost reaching 12 noon and I panicked, as usual. :P I checked my list of things that I needed to bring back to my lovely hometown :) and found most of them in my bags. Everything was in a rush and I overlooked my white jacket was hanging on my chair. I left it there so that I wouldn't forget to bring it along with me. I was such a fool. :( And yes, I actually forgotten to bring it back. :D I brought the black jacket back with me though. hahaahaha. After most of the things are checked, I rushed off and walked down the slope as usual, to get to the bus stop right down the slope. And add to that, I brought 3 bags in total, One full of my clothes and necessities, one with laptop and one with my midi controller. Boy that was really torturing my poor petite physique. LOL.

             Anyway, everything was all right and I reached the bus station earlier than I expected. So, I sat at some empty space and chilled till the time that I'm supposed to get on the bus. When it was approximately 10 minutes to 2 o'clock, one chinese old man came and sat beside me. He was really old and he looked pretty weak. Few seconds after he sat down, he asked if I could give him some money to buy a bus ticket for him. I almost fell for it and suddenly there's some voice in my mind said that this could be a scam. Well, I've heard about cases like this and I was a lil uncertain if I should trust him. However, I did not. Count myself lucky enough to avoid this scam. Otherwise, I feel sorry for him and I know there would be someone to help him. Le sigh.

                As most of you know, I am a ... kinda clumpy person. Hehehe. :P I got on my bus and I stumbled all the way to my seat. (*clears throat* I had 3 bags on me, mind you.) Then, I sat down waited for the journey to start. As usual, the bus won't start till 10 minutes has passed and I was already stoning. The beginning was like no other, started off from the centre of the city and I saw there were a lot of people on the streets, locals and tourists. I don't know why, but when I saw the emotions on their faces, I can somehow relate myself to what was happening around them. It's like I'm able to get myself involved into their stories just by looking at them. Or maybe I just have really hyperactive imagination, that's all. Heh. A few moments later, I felt sleepy so I took a nap for about 1 hour plus. By the time I woke up, I've already passed by the Xiao En Memorial Park. I will usually look outside at the memorial park every time I pass by, but not this time. Anyway, I still looked outside, all the greens, the forests and the mountains covered by tall trees, it was a really nice sight. In addition, I was listening to Hans Zimmer's songs, The Holiday's OST specifically. I was really overwhelmed and wondered if I could ever compose something like this, so sophisticated and reaching people's hearts like this.

                         Reached the bus station that I requested to drop off and saw my dad, for the first time in about 3 months. Honestly, I didn't realize that it's been that long since the last time I came back. No wonder I felt so different from the previous few times, because this time is for a long time (a month+) and not gonna hangout as often as I did the last time I came back. Hehehe. I'm so homey nowadays. I guess it's because that I've been really busy with my studies at college, assignments and examinations came right after each other. It wasn't as hectic as you see here, but to a procrastinator like me, I have been really busy and I actually enjoyed it pretty much. Moreover, I actually wanted the new semester to start as soon as possible, like next week. Either I worked myself too hard, or I got addicted for being busy. Nonetheless, it's holiday for me now. Hahahaha. So I better enjoy myself now or I will have to wait for another 6 months.

                             Reached home and I quickly get my stuffs unpacked and settled myself in front of the laptop, to get connected with people (don't get the wrong idea, I'm not that pathetic kay (: ) and I walked to the garden outside. The rambutan tree is growing and I can't wait to see the big tree that I missed. (My dad chopped it off so that it could grow bigger, in a way) and there I saw Momiji. Cute as ever, but very naughty as usual as well. Hmmm. Things were still the same and I'm glad that it's the same, so I wouldn't have to get myself familiarize with new stuffs. Mom and grandma were still at the hospital in Melacca, so  I had dinner with my second brother, Benjamin aka Ben. Before we get to our dinner, we went to Giant Hypermarket to do some groceries and of course ingredients for me to cook spaghetti for the next day. We had roti canai for our dinner and it's still as delicious as I remembered. Not long after, mom came back and we talked for a while, about her back and my stuffs. Noted, I have to get up to Hospital Mahkota in Melacca to accompany my mom for her treatment and minor surgery for her back, spinal cord in specific. Hope everything will be fine. :) Wish us luck. :D

Friday 4th December 2009

                                Woke up early but I continued to lie in bed for a while just because I missed my bed so much. hehehe. I didn't go for the jog that I promised myself because I had aching on both my shoulders and my arms. But I still went for the breakfast with Ben at some chinese shop nearby. In my opinion, it wasn't as great as what my Aunt Bibi told me earlier, it was really so-so. We went back home after the breakfast and Ben went out to pick his girlfriend up and they did the groceries for me. Hehehe. After they came back, I started to prepare our lunch, La Spaghetti. LOL. Seriously it's just a simple meal and I improvised a little on the sauce. However, the outcome is, I guess, my grandma didn't like my spaghetti after all. Aahahaha. So I'll have to practice more, and don't worry, I will never get tired of spaghetti. :) Chilled myself with one episode of "Heroes" season 4 before I get started with the task that my dad asked me to do. I didn't do much because Ben said we would have to go out soon. So, we went out, to do some shopping. YAY! :D Something that I was really happy about.

                                We went to "Suteki" a hair saloon that I regularly go whenever I come back. This time, was to get my fringe trimmed and it was nicely done. :) That's number one. Then, we went to BCB, a very very ancient shopping mall that have ever existed in this very town. Okay, it was somewhere that I usually hangout with my friends, and that one old friend of mine about 4 years ago. We ditched the place when Kluang Parade was finally built. Anyway, that's not the point. Hahaha. We went to BCB to get a bag, that Ben's girlfriend has been meaning to buy. So he decided to buy it and give it to her as a christmas present. Aww how sweet. Even I got jealous. Hehehe. Kidding. Well, we were lucky to see the bag is still in stock and the last time Ben went to the shop, it wasn't there, and the price was literally doubled! We got the bag and with a reasonable price. We ARE happy. :D

                               After that, we went to Kluang Mall, the newest shopping mall in Kluang. No need to comment on this one, you'll have to come and see it yourself. LOL. We headed there, to get my heels. I need a pair cuz I've forgotten to bring my other pair back, which are the pair that can match with the dress that I planned to wear on Saturday(today) for my cousin's wedding dinner. There were 3 shops that sell shoes in Kluang Mall and I finally found the one that I wanted in the last shop. Black heels with straps, but not really that strapped up. Its design is simple and one of a kind, so it's kinda my thing. :D The next thing I bought was facial mask and facial wash and off we went home. With satisfied hearts, of course. Before we headed home, we bought some otak-otak, some local cuisine, spicy fish cakes, which turned out badly. Not spicy, too much coloring and all. NEVER gonna get otak-otak there again. NEVER. However, that's not a downer for us. :) We were still happy.

  

                               We got home after dinner at grandma's place. We rested for a while and I was trying out my outfit with my new heels. Then, my mom asked I could accompany her to Giant to get some fruits for tomorrow. So, I went off with her and found ourselves a night market behind the shop lots. I was pretty surprised cuz I never expected to have one, so near to my house. So now I know it's always Friday night. Nice. :) After we're all done with our groceries*again*, we went back home and to my surprise, my mom gave me some movies that I have always wanted since forever!  ---- "500 days of Summer", "Eternal Sunshine of Spotless mind", "4 christmases" and "The Time Traveler's Wife". Hmmm. And I have heroes 4. Okie I have so many stuffs to watch during this semester break. So, the more reason for me to be happy and grinning non-stop.

          

                               Seriously, a great start for my semester break. And I'm looking forward for the rest of it. :) Although I don't have my driving lessons anymore, I'm still friggin happy and no one can make me otherwise. :D

::  p/s  ::

I'm sorry if the last paragraph seemed a lil messy

and unorganized.

Because I'm in a hurry to get prepared.

Busy weekend I have.

Saturday(today) - wedding dinner, at Melacca

Sunday - Grandma(dad's side) 's birthday celebration.

Gotta take some great photos along the way. I need my inspirations. :D

            

Gumption

It still does make me feel like crying
or..
rather like redemption,
whenever I listen to this very song,
"Everything is beautiful"
by
Starfield.






Sigh. Okie not sigh.
But I always feel the urge of running away,
and just keep on running,
as if I'm running towards something/someone
who's gonna change my life,
forever.
Or maybe, for a certain time of period,
and let me "evolve" from time to time.
I don't dislike this feeling, really.





I just feel a lil happy,
the fact that I'm going back today, in the afternoon.
It's going to be a great start of the end of this year.
Heh.








::  p/s  ::
make plans for my holiday,
a list of it.
:)

Everything's right :)

For it's a good start of the day,

I'm feeling good. :)

Listening to the songs

that I did

earlier this year,

it's definitely good.

It feels like a brand new day,

or

rather the beginning of a new year.

Yeah, that's exactly how I feel

when I'm listening to those songs,

happy, positive, settled and refreshed.

Then again,

I think I need a new playlist again.

LOL.

I'll be having the whole December to myself.

To do whatever I want durh. :D

Weeeee~~~~

Random thoughts (1)

Hmm.





Do not question me why,
do I have the urge of being at the airport,
or even being in the plane,
flying high in the sky.
On top of that,
even my mind was serene when I was thinking of the real situation.







Another so-called finals aftermath, I suppose.
lol.
Well, right after my exam reached its end, I called my parents
to let them know about it and it was pleasant, not that it's not supposed to be like this, but yeah.
And then, I was off to get my bus ticket
and to survey around Starhill aka Bukit Bintang for my future spouse, lol, keyboard.
Yeah, the more I looked around and tried the keyboards/synthesisers or midi controllers,
it's better to have keyboards, though the price is a lil more expensive than the others.
So, tomorrow I'll have to ask around, again.
To have better options and to have better idea in what I'm supposed to look for.
And, if it's possible, I'd like to get one next year, by June. Hopefully. :)





Now, my mind channels into the places that I've been to earlier today.
I was all alone, walking around 
with the company of strangers and other pedestrians on the road.
With my earphones on, with the songs that I desired to listen to.
It's been a while and I still want some more of this.
It's really good to be alone once in a while, to not have someone by your side,
it's more like clearing off your mind in a way.
Yeah, I find myself more peaceful and more alert to my surroundings,
weird, huh? :)
It's actually almost the same as what I feel now, "being at the airport, on the plane and all".
Okie, I admit, I'm just slightly overdosed of watching "Attention Please".
Hahahaha. It's not a bad thing, kay... I just wanna feel relaxed, that's all.





I don't need anyone to be by my side, just to share my feelings with,
and to have someone understanding me, as in, nodding to whatever I say.
it's exhausting and come to think of it, it doesn't feel real and right, in a way.
Not many understand how I feel about this, which is good,
because the others simply don't have to.
I'm not just someone that you "understand" and there you go again, with nodding.
Okay fine, maybe I have different definition of understanding between friends,
lol, and yeah, let me be. :)






Enough said.
One more day,
just one more day,
I'll be officially free.
I'm already through with the hardest one,
so I can do this even better.
GOD BLESS!
:D

A "lil" stressed

I suddenly feel a lil



envious



of those whose birthdays are in
December.
I don't know why exactly am I feeling this way,
maybe because of the stress that I'm having,
and the pre-aftermath, if there's such word, lol.
And maybe because the songs I'm listening to now,
all by Lisa Ono.
Sigh I feel so calmed.






You wouldn't want to talk to me
if you knew that I was busy
BANGING my poor piano earlier
cuz of the frustration  -------  my exam's friggin tomorrow.
And i don't effin care.
I'm just gonna do my best, and whack whatever I can for my solo
in my jazz piece, "Night & Day".
Like I care how it would sound like now. Grr.





I'm tired
and
my brain is apparently in "sleep" mode.
So yeah.
I guess that's it for today.
I'll post up something more positive some time soon.
As soon as I get my final final final final final exam done,
and get myself happy.
:)





I need to shop, to make myself happy.
No, I'm not a shopaholic, and I'm not a potential one,
so don't worry. :)
I just need to breathe.
Damn.

You only live once

Aaaah...



There goes my final piece of,
chocolate.
*nom*
:D
I feel calmed and all, but not excited and hyper. LOL.



Since yesterday, I've been eating a lot of carbs and chocolate.
Gooohh.
Spaghetti, instant noodles*it's been a while... lol.* and chocolate that is. :D
I eez happy!
By the way, it's actually the first time I cook spaghetti like this,
with tuna, garlic and other seasonings. lol.
Interesting........
I shall cook that again when I get back to hometown,
where the resources are always available.
And even when they're not,
I can always walk to the Giant Hypermarket to get all the ingredients I need
with just around 10 minutes walk.
No pain. Hence no gain. *grin*





The chocolate was actually to calm my disturbed mind.
Honest.
My piano, one of the keys is ... faulty.
I can't play properly with that note,
because whenever I hit the note, the other key would hit with it,
causing a dissonant sound, which I don't like at all.
Dai kirai desu. :(




Hmmm.
I need to practice.
Exam's coming, it's tuesday and wednesday.
I can do this.
I've grown, so I must act like one too.
Though I've encountered some obstacles along the way,
I can do this, with not only my persistence, and also GOD's help.
I'm so doing the last minute thing. Hahahahaa.
Blame me not.
But I will do my best and get this done and over with.
:D





Me eez strong!
So I will do my best,
and shall have absolutely no regrets.
Because I know that time is unforgiving.
:)





::  p/s  ::
Btw,
I've been watching a jap drama,
"Attention Please" nowadays,
and I love learning new japanese words
whenever I watch one,
and..... learning different life lessons
when I watch one.
It's nice. Overwhelming, yeah..

Me eez HYPER! :D

I AM HYPER

LIKE MAD

LIKE EXTREMELY HAPPY

cuz of many reasons

but

definitely not because of

redbull.

:P

Heh sorry

but I'm not really a fan of redbull.

ANYWAY!

I've just finished one of last two exams

of the semester,

Performance studies (2).

Though the whole semester was

somewhat alike the one last year

and what I've been through

along with my classmates

were overwhelming.

Come to think of it,

I've almost forgotten the way

Eric teaches us in class

was actually benefiting us

though the process may seemed otherwise.

Hehehehe.

Well, the outcome is always worth looking forward to.

:D

But it's too early to say so.

Hehehe.

I have one more exam to go,

remember?

Anyhow,

I'll do my best

and get my exam done

with satisfaction.

:D

I can do this.

Gosh I still feel so thrilled.

and

loved.

Yay.

:)

::  p/s ::

I'm going to watch

"Twilight saga - New Moon"

TONIGHT!!!

TONIGHT!!!! OMG IT'S TONIGHT!!!

:D

not a misguided ghost

I am somehow feeling

aimless.

It's the time of the semester,

the end is approaching and its steps are so swiftly.

And the way I feel now is like

leaving my home behind,

but I'm just leaving college for the coming semester break,

for one whole month.

It's a little unbelievable that I'm feeling like this,

it's as if I'm not coming back again.

I hope that doesn't happen. Hahahaha.

Sigh.

I wished that semester break would come fast

more than anyone else, I don't know why, I just wished.

Yet,

I'm having second thoughts now.

Why am I being so contradicting here?

I've planned many things for the coming holidays

and one by one

they're turning their back on me.

Nice.

The Penang trip was cancelled because

my aunt Yvonne couldn't apply any leaves,

The Seremban/Melacca Trip was cancelled

because one of my cousin is getting married

and

Joanna's friends couldn't make it as well.

I hope I'm still getting my driving lessons this holiday,

otherwise it'll be a big waste of time.

My hometown is nothing like the city that I'm living in,

although it did provide me the peace and serenity

that I've yearned all these whiles.

Homesick was never quite existing,

 in my own dictionary, that is.

However, this illness has become a lil serious

compared to the last time I went back.

Maybe because I needed some love and sense of security

which only my family members could give.

Ah well,

It's just another year that's gonna end,

that's all.

I believe the coming days will be interesting and endlessly surprising

for me,

and I know it will be a great year ahead.

This is how much I love life.

I am still capable of smiling

and

nothing would make me frown, yet.

GOD is fair and just.

Take care everyone!

:D

yeah i'm whining :P

My left arm.
hmmm..
The whole limb actually.
I can barely play well with my left arm like this.
Thank GOD I don't play much with my left arm.
Sigh.
Why???
Why muscle spasms now???
Owh... that includes my right feet and my right pinkie. meow.
It hurts whenever I hit the "c" note like four times in a bar, and there's like four bars.
TT_______TT
And........
Both of my shoulders muscles.
Le sigh.




However,
That means I'll have to rest kaw kaw during this sem break. :D
Me eez looking forward to my sem break! wee~
Okie I'm done with my practice....
So I will turn in earlier today.
Sigh. Sad. Pain. Tired.





But me eez having fun with samba, despite the fact that it's really hard to get it right.
Yum samba~! X)
It's 2 days away! (Performance studies) oh wait, 1 day away! aaaaahh!!! *PANIC*
Hmm.
Yeah.
I can. I can. I can.
PRACTICE~~~~~

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧......






1.很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。

他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若

離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。

妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。




2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，

令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，

說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。

八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。



3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。

當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起

的是他交往八年的前任女友。

為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，

他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。



4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。

喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；

你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；

你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。

戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，

所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。



5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任

感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不

是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一

個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的

愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。

等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上

有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，

可是他娶的卻不是她。

這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？



6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結

婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結

婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃

了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少

一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，

到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑

假，等當兵的人。



7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，

如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金

子，有了一切再結婚。

現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，

他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許

下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。

就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再

結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。

因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？

有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期

限，青春是女人的天敵。

如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的

黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫

襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼

工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男

人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。

遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他

認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。



8. 也提醒各位男士，

如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一

起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，

否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但

身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。



真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......

one of those discoveries

I've been reading the blog posts from my old blog
and
honestly, it was fun. :D
I don't know, it's like you're taking a break, and start looking back,
to see what you've done and what you've been thinking.
Most of it was pleasant, and I have found some answers to my unspoken questions.







Was a lil emotional before I saw this,

"Always believe

that

you are going to get

what you really wished for.

Wish for the good.

Think positive."

And I felt so much better.
Mit tiefer Dankbarkeit!
minna san. :D

In a christmas mood! :D

Ohohoho.

Don't ask me why, I'm sooooooo in christmas mood now.

Hehehehe.

It's especially when I am listening to christmas songs,

classic ones of course :D

Me eez feeling very merry!

I don't need to wonder why

as I know every day gets better

every year gets better too!

I miss those days with those darlings.

23rd Dec 2008

24th Dec 2008

25th Dec 2008

The best christmas I've ever had, honestly.

And I want another couple of christmases with them again.

Miss them very very much. :(

You know,

the difference of spending time with friends and family

 during festive season is very apparent.

It's about to enjoy yourself in such a merry event,

in different ways, that is. :)

However,

nothing beats the way of celebrating christmas

like the picture above.

It's simply heartwarming and pleasant

in every way.

My dream christmas. aah~

*waltzing into my winter wonderland jor*

:)

It's all right.

I know this year will be great as ever.

*singing*

December~ December~ December~~~~~~

and
dancing to the christmas carols... :D
*giggle*

till then,

cya world!

:)

Meow :)

I woke up around 12.37pm.
So I didn't go for the swim, decided to postpone it till later at 6pm.





Turns out......






it's raining after all.




DEMO!!
Daijoubu dayo.  :D
I have Special A      *thanks to yingying ♥*
and some practice as well.....




Anyway, I shall swim tomorrow, if possible. Heheheehe.
Can't wait for holiday. December!
Os!

You reap what you sow

Heh.




I guess I still need that trip after all. And another one after that. :D
To keep my mind off of everything that I'm involved right now,
it's absolutely necessary.
One month should be enough, I guess.
Thank you family and friends for all these. Sigh.
I was really over my head and couldn't think through of what should be my priority.
Some certain mono just shouldn't linger my mind.
So, just shake it off and move on after that.
May you reap what you sow, mono. :)
That shouldn't be my problem anymore, it was never mine from the beginning after all.
I'm merely choosing a better path and have better mind, in order to have better future.
Just without you.
It's nice to meet you, though. :)







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I wonder if I should go for a swim tomorrow morning.
Hope there will be a great weather tomorrow. hehehehe.
Oh, I just came back from a movie, "A Christmas Carol".
It's more than movie, more than just a life lesson.




One must be contented with what he has now, and share with others who don't have what he has.
Love may not be mutual, but be satisfied of what you are able to give and able to receive.
Selfishness will not bring you far, but kindness will give you more than you ever desired.
The world will never come to an end even when you're against the world by yourself.
However, you're never really alone. Just keep that in mind, at least you won't feel so helpless anymore.






I'm glad, again.
As I'm always telling myself that it's okay, I'm gonna be fine.
I can do this, for my own sake, I can do this.
December's coming, Saaaaa~~~~~~~~ :D
Till then, bye world! :)

me eez not feeling good NOW

I don't like stress.
I mean, for most of the time, yeah.





It makes me feel like shit.
It made me wanna curse
and throw tantrums to random people.
It made me feel sleepy in the end, making me feel as if I'm escaping from my current situation.
No time to worry for my aching shoulder,
no time to feed my appetite because I'm simply not in any mood to eat.
What in the world is going on now.
I'm like this all because of stress, not worth it, I know.
But it's hard to control your emotions when you're under stress, okay?
Oh maybe i know, it's because of something that is going to happen,
in fact, a lot of things are going to happen within 2 weeks time.
Sigh. All because of the procrastination and my laziness durh.






Enough crap.
I'm leaving, and going somewhere I feel like to.
At least I won't feel so stressed out when I'm on a journey to somewhere.
There will always be songs playing in my head anyway.
Take care.

All smiles!

Good morning, world!

:)

Though I didn't have enough sleep last night

*slept at 2, woke up around 9*

I feel like it's a great start of the day already!

Yeah..

I've been watching Gintama since last night

and

it's been a really great company,

that entertains me with its great sense of humor.

Hahaha. okie irony.

But still,

it's been good and I've been laughing

like nobody's business.

Plus,

I can finally play

Bejeweled Blitz without any worry

of unable to finish my projects

because it has ended

YESTERDAY!

However,

I'll still have to practice a lot

for my coming exams.

gah.

Never mind.

Enjoy for a little while,

then practice.

:D

I'm all smiles!

I don't know why

but I'm happy about it.

:D

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Though my holidays

are what I've expected since the beginning of the year,

I shall continue with my plans

and

try to explore more stuffs

that I couldn't do

when I was "busy" with my college's stuffs.

Hehehe.

Now that it's almost over,

oh wait,

I should rejoice when it's totally over,

when I don't have to wake up early every day

just to get to college.

Sigh, there's so much changes,

I need to change my route to college,

have to get to somewhere else to go home,

instead of waiting for buses anymore.

No worries.

What needs to be changed, shall be changed.

And that applies to someone as well.

Though it would be worse than before,

I shall never be bothered by this

because none of them was worth it.

So, think of the future.

Future's always better

and I'm doing my best to realize it.

:)

GRIN MORE PEOPLE!

GRIN!

:D

Ame•suki

I wonder,
since when I fell in love with the rain.




I used to loathe it, a lot.
Whenever it rains, I groan.
Rain to me, it's almost devastating and it gives me the blues.
People who know me, would say that I'm a "typical cat".
Hah.
Well I'm not gonna deny that fact, that I used to hate the rain, or maybe I still do, but just a little.






Last weekend when I was on my way home from Times Square
(I went there for the Anime Hanabi Festival)
and apparently I missed them all. lol.
Well, there's always next time. I hope I won't miss it again, never, again.


The point is, it was already raining cats and dogs outside
and it was difficult for me to go home with weather like this.
However, somewhat lucky I may say,
the rain became smaller and it was drizzling for the rest of the night.
I was walking in the rain, listening to Paramore's songs through my cellphone,
and for that moment, I felt really good.
It's nothing like other feelings like walking under the sun,
which is a totally different thing *obviously*
or walking on the streets.
Walking in the rain, in anywhere, it's the same. The time and place, doesn't really matter.


It was so natural and relieving
when I felt the raindrops on my face.
Singing and enjoying the nature by the road,
while waiting for a cab to get me home because nobody was available,
that was absolutely refreshing.



And today, I know somewhere in my mind that today would rain again, because of the monsoon.
Obviously I've totally forgotten about it and got myself wet because of the rain.
But, that was nothing. I asked for it. I wanted the raindrops keep falling on my head.
Because I enjoyed it.
This sort of desire, is none like other and I actually liked it.
Well, the funny thing is, there were absolutely nothing going on my mind
when I was walking in the rain, no melody, nobody, nothing, nil.
Maybe I'm just too tired. Yeah. Due to the last-minute projects, I blame myself for that.
But still, I love it. Hahahaaha.

I still love the sun. I do.
But the rain, it's surely different now.
I'm sure, that I don't hate it so much anymore.
Another evolution, I see. Hehehe.




By the way, I've finished my projects, and now I'm left with my performance studies
and my piano exam.
Have to practice a lot.
and to listen a lot to swingy music. Yeah whatever it is.
I have to get them over with and start planning my holiday properly.
Don't wanna waste it like previous semester breaks which I promised myself the same thing too.
LOL.
I can do it.




Take care peeps.
I'm not sick anymore, so don't worry.
If I'm emo, just let me be, okay.
:)





::  p/s  ::
I wonder why did I dream of him,
it was totally random.
And I felt a little different, toward him, that is.
Maybe it's just me.
Okay. It's just me.
Btw, it's not "him". It's someone else. hahaha.