A "lil" stressed

I suddenly feel a lil



envious



of those whose birthdays are in
December.
I don't know why exactly am I feeling this way,
maybe because of the stress that I'm having,
and the pre-aftermath, if there's such word, lol.
And maybe because the songs I'm listening to now,
all by Lisa Ono.
Sigh I feel so calmed.






You wouldn't want to talk to me
if you knew that I was busy
BANGING my poor piano earlier
cuz of the frustration  -------  my exam's friggin tomorrow.
And i don't effin care.
I'm just gonna do my best, and whack whatever I can for my solo
in my jazz piece, "Night & Day".
Like I care how it would sound like now. Grr.





I'm tired
and
my brain is apparently in "sleep" mode.
So yeah.
I guess that's it for today.
I'll post up something more positive some time soon.
As soon as I get my final final final final final exam done,
and get myself happy.
:)





I need to shop, to make myself happy.
No, I'm not a shopaholic, and I'm not a potential one,
so don't worry. :)
I just need to breathe.
Damn.

You only live once

Aaaah...



There goes my final piece of,
chocolate.
*nom*
:D
I feel calmed and all, but not excited and hyper. LOL.



Since yesterday, I've been eating a lot of carbs and chocolate.
Gooohh.
Spaghetti, instant noodles*it's been a while... lol.* and chocolate that is. :D
I eez happy!
By the way, it's actually the first time I cook spaghetti like this,
with tuna, garlic and other seasonings. lol.
Interesting........
I shall cook that again when I get back to hometown,
where the resources are always available.
And even when they're not,
I can always walk to the Giant Hypermarket to get all the ingredients I need
with just around 10 minutes walk.
No pain. Hence no gain. *grin*





The chocolate was actually to calm my disturbed mind.
Honest.
My piano, one of the keys is ... faulty.
I can't play properly with that note,
because whenever I hit the note, the other key would hit with it,
causing a dissonant sound, which I don't like at all.
Dai kirai desu. :(




Hmmm.
I need to practice.
Exam's coming, it's tuesday and wednesday.
I can do this.
I've grown, so I must act like one too.
Though I've encountered some obstacles along the way,
I can do this, with not only my persistence, and also GOD's help.
I'm so doing the last minute thing. Hahahahaa.
Blame me not.
But I will do my best and get this done and over with.
:D





Me eez strong!
So I will do my best,
and shall have absolutely no regrets.
Because I know that time is unforgiving.
:)





::  p/s  ::
Btw,
I've been watching a jap drama,
"Attention Please" nowadays,
and I love learning new japanese words
whenever I watch one,
and..... learning different life lessons
when I watch one.
It's nice. Overwhelming, yeah..

Me eez HYPER! :D

I AM HYPER

LIKE MAD

LIKE EXTREMELY HAPPY

cuz of many reasons

but

definitely not because of

redbull.

:P

Heh sorry

but I'm not really a fan of redbull.

ANYWAY!

I've just finished one of last two exams

of the semester,

Performance studies (2).

Though the whole semester was

somewhat alike the one last year

and what I've been through

along with my classmates

were overwhelming.

Come to think of it,

I've almost forgotten the way

Eric teaches us in class

was actually benefiting us

though the process may seemed otherwise.

Hehehehe.

Well, the outcome is always worth looking forward to.

:D

But it's too early to say so.

Hehehe.

I have one more exam to go,

remember?

Anyhow,

I'll do my best

and get my exam done

with satisfaction.

:D

I can do this.

Gosh I still feel so thrilled.

and

loved.

Yay.

:)

::  p/s ::

I'm going to watch

"Twilight saga - New Moon"

TONIGHT!!!

TONIGHT!!!! OMG IT'S TONIGHT!!!

:D

not a misguided ghost

I am somehow feeling

aimless.

It's the time of the semester,

the end is approaching and its steps are so swiftly.

And the way I feel now is like

leaving my home behind,

but I'm just leaving college for the coming semester break,

for one whole month.

It's a little unbelievable that I'm feeling like this,

it's as if I'm not coming back again.

I hope that doesn't happen. Hahahaha.

Sigh.

I wished that semester break would come fast

more than anyone else, I don't know why, I just wished.

Yet,

I'm having second thoughts now.

Why am I being so contradicting here?

I've planned many things for the coming holidays

and one by one

they're turning their back on me.

Nice.

The Penang trip was cancelled because

my aunt Yvonne couldn't apply any leaves,

The Seremban/Melacca Trip was cancelled

because one of my cousin is getting married

and

Joanna's friends couldn't make it as well.

I hope I'm still getting my driving lessons this holiday,

otherwise it'll be a big waste of time.

My hometown is nothing like the city that I'm living in,

although it did provide me the peace and serenity

that I've yearned all these whiles.

Homesick was never quite existing,

 in my own dictionary, that is.

However, this illness has become a lil serious

compared to the last time I went back.

Maybe because I needed some love and sense of security

which only my family members could give.

Ah well,

It's just another year that's gonna end,

that's all.

I believe the coming days will be interesting and endlessly surprising

for me,

and I know it will be a great year ahead.

This is how much I love life.

I am still capable of smiling

and

nothing would make me frown, yet.

GOD is fair and just.

Take care everyone!

:D

yeah i'm whining :P

My left arm.
hmmm..
The whole limb actually.
I can barely play well with my left arm like this.
Thank GOD I don't play much with my left arm.
Sigh.
Why???
Why muscle spasms now???
Owh... that includes my right feet and my right pinkie. meow.
It hurts whenever I hit the "c" note like four times in a bar, and there's like four bars.
TT_______TT
And........
Both of my shoulders muscles.
Le sigh.




However,
That means I'll have to rest kaw kaw during this sem break. :D
Me eez looking forward to my sem break! wee~
Okie I'm done with my practice....
So I will turn in earlier today.
Sigh. Sad. Pain. Tired.





But me eez having fun with samba, despite the fact that it's really hard to get it right.
Yum samba~! X)
It's 2 days away! (Performance studies) oh wait, 1 day away! aaaaahh!!! *PANIC*
Hmm.
Yeah.
I can. I can. I can.
PRACTICE~~~~~

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧......






1.很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。

他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若

離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。

妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。




2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，

令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，

說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。

八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。



3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。

當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起

的是他交往八年的前任女友。

為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，

他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。



4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。

喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；

你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；

你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。

戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，

所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。



5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任

感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不

是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一

個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的

愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。

等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上

有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，

可是他娶的卻不是她。

這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？



6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結

婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結

婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃

了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少

一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，

到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑

假，等當兵的人。



7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，

如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金

子，有了一切再結婚。

現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，

他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許

下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。

就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再

結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。

因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？

有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期

限，青春是女人的天敵。

如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的

黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫

襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼

工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男

人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。

遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他

認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。



8. 也提醒各位男士，

如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一

起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，

否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但

身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。



真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......

one of those discoveries

I've been reading the blog posts from my old blog
and
honestly, it was fun. :D
I don't know, it's like you're taking a break, and start looking back,
to see what you've done and what you've been thinking.
Most of it was pleasant, and I have found some answers to my unspoken questions.







Was a lil emotional before I saw this,

"Always believe

that

you are going to get

what you really wished for.

Wish for the good.

Think positive."

And I felt so much better.
Mit tiefer Dankbarkeit!
minna san. :D