la verdad

异性之间的友谊确是存在的

2010-06-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

异性之间的友谊确是存在的，假如给它一个定义，我想，它的名字应该叫 --温暖。

当你高兴时，你会第一个想到他，把你的快乐告诉他。而他会陪你一起兴奋、一起开怀大笑。

当你伤心时，你也会第一个想到他。他不会和你一同悲伤，而是用他特有的方式，给你鼓励、给你体贴，
让你在他的关怀中感到丝丝温暖，在不知不觉中抚平你心灵的创伤。

当因为你的固执而伤害了自己时，他会大声地训你，甚至会骂你几句，但你也从不会记恨，甚至你体会到的是一种暖暖的心意。
同时，你也会为他而拿出你的真心与真情，也会把他的一切记在你的心间。

当你知道他要出门远行，你会发自内心地为他的行程担心和祝福；当你知道他身体有什么不适，你会真心真意地为他而感到心疼；
当他的事业不顺心，你会真心地为他焦急，并奉上你微薄而真心的鼓励。

这种朋友，你可以和他开各种深浅不一的玩笑，甚至会说：我喜欢你，我爱你。
而不必担心他会真的成为你的情人而让你受到一丝一毫的伤害。
你可以把自己所有的心里话都说给他听，甚至是夫妻之间、情人之间都无法表达的心里的秘密。
而这时候的他，就是一个最好的听众，一个最好的咨询专家，为你解除心底的迷惑和痛苦。

这种朋友，不会有像情人那样一日不见如隔三秋的相思，但也会从心底扯出那丝丝的牵挂而温暖你的心。

这种朋友，不管有多长时间没见，见了后，都会有一种最亲、最近的感觉，都会让你有一种温馨的暖意在心中升起。

在你需要的时候，他总是一棵大树，为你撑起一把摭风挡雨的绿伞；
在你无力的时候，他会为你撑起一片蓝天。而他却从不求回报，只需你抬起头，为他献上甜甜的一笑；
只需你轻轻地抚摸一下他粗大的树干，他就会因你的鼓励而成长地更加枝繁叶茂，而那种郁郁葱葱地绿，会给你更多舒心的清凉。
你拥有这样的异性之间，不见面也会有聊不完的话题、说不完的乐事。享受这种温暖的异性之间的友谊吗？？？　永远记得和珍惜....

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2010-06-04T14:07:00.000+08:00

如果有一天我放弃了你

请不要怀疑我是否恋上另一个人

是因为我发觉你不珍惜我

离开你并非我愿意

我不想拿放弃当威胁

因为那两个字我不曾轻易说出口因为我爱你

假如有天我真正选择了离开

那么对不起不是想要你的挽留

而是对你真的死了心

有些人总是在失去之后才知道曾经的美好

在我决定离开你之前我会给你好多机会

如果你把我给你的机会当做你放纵的资本

有天我会真的走出来

虽然我会痛会伤心

可我了解自己

一旦爱上一个人会全心全意

可一旦我真正决定了死心

那么我只会在心里哭泣一次

然后选择忘记

不要以为感情的事如果没有出现第三者的话很容易复合

我的字典里没有这个概念

如果我选择了放弃选择了离开

那么我便再也不会回头

在你生命中我重要吗

你有在乎过我吗

每次发给你的信息你认真看了吗

朋友们

不要让你身边的人等得太久了

如果有天我真的消失了

你会不会再找到我?

Blackheads problems? Here comes the "rescue"! sort of.

2010-04-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

Blackheads, the problem which most of us face in this polluted World, are nothing but pores blocked with oil deposits and dead skins. They can also be called a Kin of Acne. People with oily skin are more affected with Blackheads and exposure to pollution worsens the problem. The major solution for blackheads is to keep the skin clean. Technology has easy solutions, Lazar treatment being on the top of the charts but it's best to follow natural remedies for this skin disorder.

Blackheads are normally found on those places of the body which has sebaceous glands. These are glands which secrete oil or waxy matter to lubricate the skin. Recently it has been noticed that blackheads problems are more than pimples.

As said earlier, blackheads are best treated at home. The home remedies are as under -

1.Make a pack of 1tsp Epsom salt, 4 drops Iodine and 1/4th cup of water. Let the solution cool down. Apply it on the affected area and wipe it with cotton after it has dried.

2.Taking steam is one of the best solutions. Steam opens up the blocked pores. After taking steam for about 10 mints, wipe your face with a wet cloth.

3.Applying hot honey as pack is also effective. The heat of honey opens the pores and honey being a natural bleach, clears the area.

4.Apply a pack of 5gm sandalwood powder, 5gm turmeric paste and a little milk on the affected area. Let the pack dry and then wash it with Luke warm water. Sandalwood powder dries the oily area, turmeric is an antiseptic, which cures the skin disorder and milk being a natural cleanser cleans the skin.

5.Mix of 1 tbsp of cinnamon powder with 3 table spoon of honey and keep it overnight. Next day wash it with cold water. Both these agents are very good scrubs.

Home remedies may not give immediate effects and that's only because it treats the problem and cures the root cause. Artificial treatment may solve the problem but come with a lot of side effects. All the above remedies when applied, treats blackheads and also cures all other skin disorders.

The original article was from

http://living.oneindia.in/beauty/skin-n-body-care/2010/blackheads-home-remedies-010410.html

生活常识

2010-04-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

1、常吃宵夜。会得胃癌。因为胃得不到休息

2、一个星期只能吃四颗蛋。吃太多。对身体不好

3、鸡屁股含有致癌物，不要吃较好

4、饭前吃水果是错误的观念。应是饭后半小时吃水果

5、女生月经来时。不要喝绿茶。反正茶类不要喝就对了。多吃可以补血的东西

6、喝豆浆时不要加鸡蛋及糖。也不要喝太多

7、空腹时不要吃蕃茄，最好饭后吃

8、早上醒来。先喝一杯水。预防结石

9、睡前三小时不要吃东西。会胖

10、少喝奶茶。因为高热量。高油。没有营养价值可言。长期饮用。
易罹患高血压。糖尿玻等疾病

11、刚出炉的面包不宜马上食用

12、远离充电座。人体应远离30公分以上。切忌放在床边

13、天天喝水八大杯

14、每天十杯水。膀胱癌不会来

15、白天多喝水。晚上少喝水

16、一天不要喝两杯以上的咖啡。喝太多易导致失眠，胃痛

17、多油脂的食物少吃。因为得花5~7小时去消化，并使脑中血液集中到肠胃。易昏昏欲睡

18、下午五点后。大餐少少吃，因为五点后身体不需那么多能量

19、10种吃了会快乐的食物：深海鱼，香蕉，葡萄柚，全麦面包，菠菜，大蒜，南瓜，低脂牛奶，鸡肉，樱桃

20、睡眠不足会变笨，一天须八小时睡眠，有午睡习惯较不会老

21、最佳睡眠时间是在晚上10点~清晨6点

22、每天喝酒不要超过一杯，因为酒精会抑制制造抗体的B细胞，增加细菌感染的机会

23、服用胶囊应以冷水吞服(可以第一个吃)，睡前30分先服药。忌立即躺下

24、酸梅具防止老化作用，青春永驻；肝火有毛病者宜多食用

25、掉发因素：熬夜，压力，烟酒，香鸡排。麻辣锅。油腻食物。调味过重的料理

26、帮助头发生长：多食用包心菜，蛋。豆类；少吃甜食(尤其是果糖)

27、每天一杯柠檬汁，柳橙汁。不但可以美白还可以淡化黑斑

28、苹果是机车族、瘾君子、家庭主妇的常备良药，一天一颗，才能让自己有个干干净净的肺

29、抽烟又吃维他命(B胡萝卜素-A维他命的一种)，会致癌，尽早戒烟。才是最健康的做法

30、女性不宜喝茶的五个时期：月经来时，孕妇，临产前。生产完后，更年期

31、抽烟，关系最大的是肺癌，唇癌，舌癌，喉癌，食道癌，也与膀胱癌有关

32、饮酒导致肝硬化。引发肝癌

33、吃槟榔会导致口腔纤维化，口腔癌

34、食物过于精细，缺乏纤维；含大量脂肪，尤其是胆固醇会引发胃癌

35、食物过于粗糙，营养不足时导致食道癌，胃癌

36、食品中的黄曲毒素。亚硝酸类物皆具有致癌性

37、不抽烟。拒吸二手烟

38、适量饮酒，不拚久。不醉酒

39、减少食用盐腌。烟熏，烧烤的食物

40、每天摄取新鲜的蔬菜与水果

41、每天摄取富含高纤维的五谷类及豆类

42、每天摄取均衡的饮食，不过量

43、维持理想体重。不过胖

44、保持规律的生活与运动

45、保持轻松愉快的心情

46、正确饮食习惯：早上吃的像皇帝，中午吃的像平民，晚上吃的像乞丐

"You and Me" by Olivia

2010-03-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

Taking a trip down memory lane
Things have changed
One thing remains
That they will always have each other

And even though those days have gone
They know here is where they belong
There's some kinda magic in the air
Feel the warmth
That only summer breezes can bring
Sweet little notes of spring begin
Nothing to fear

Taking one step at a time
Walking hand in hand
1 2 3 4
Cheek to cheek
And they're learning
How to do that dance
Let this love be forevermore they say
I wish for this
To be true for you and me

Holding her close
He leading the way
Out at the park
Enjoying the day
And you can tell they'll be ok
Feel the warmth
That only summer breezes can bring
Sweet little notes of spring begin
Nothing to fear
.....

oh i love this song.

Thanks bro.

I don't really wanna talk about it

2010-03-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

There were a few moments,

I just wanna have my eyes wide shut,

to endure the pain and all the unpleasant feelings.

There were a few moments,

I just wanna barf and faint

just because I'm not feeling well already,

and to hear this news.

I'm so sorry to hear that. Really.

And then, there were a few moments,

I still remember my purpose of continuing my life

where I thought I had long deserted it.

At least, these moments, were precious enough to me.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

I still don't like feeling nauseous, and I don't know why.

Maybe it's the coca cola I had at lunch.

Ugh. I should really stop having carbonated drinks completely.

That's it.

男人•女人

2010-03-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

男人

你有你的潇洒，你可以肆意的玩弄各种女人。
你可以在你的兄弟面前炫耀你在哪又把了几个妹。
你也可以在玩大某个女子的肚子，
不负一点责任的离开。
只因为你是男人。

你可以在心里放着某个自认为深爱着的女子，
却在怀里搂着另一个你认为不爱的女子。
你总是以不忍心为由去欺骗一个又一个女子的感情，
只因为你是男人。

在没得到某个女子的时候，
你可以为她做所有事，包括伤害自己。
等到得到以后，便开始挑剔，便看她不顺眼
便为自己的花心找一个又一个的理由。
只因为你是男人。

当你认识了一个新mm，前提是这个mm面容较好。
你就学会了在她面前抱怨，
抱怨自己的现女友有多么
不了解你，不懂你，不支持你，不适合你。
只因为你是男人。

你可以在一个刚认识不到2个小时的女子面前言爱，
而忘记了那个与你同风共雨2年的女子。
你天生就爱新鲜感，你天生就喜新厌旧，
即使不爱，你也可以跟她上床。
只因为你是男人。

你习惯口是心非，
习惯用一个谎言去掩盖另一个谎言。
习惯看深爱你的女子落泪，习惯为义气而不顾她的心疼。
不爱的时候，习惯用“你很好，我不配”来收尾。
只因为你是男人。

女人

喜欢被人宠爱，喜欢听假话，
只要那些假话合你的胃口。
总以为地球围着自己转，总以为自己是世界上最美的人，
看谁都比不上自己。
因为你是女人，你有权利自负。

你害怕天黑，害怕孤单，害怕没有人陪。
看韩剧会哭，听忧伤情歌会感伤，你感性且性感。即使你在人前是个女强人，被黑夜侵蚀的时候，还是会疼。
因为你是女人，你有权利悲伤。

你总以为这个他会陪你天荒地老，
你总以为自己很幸福，
你总以一个固执的姿态去相信他。
你会敏感，你会怀疑，你会害怕，
终因他一个眼神，而放下所有防备。
因为你是女人，你有权利幸福。

其实你并没有你的外表那般坚强，
你说其实一个人，你也可以过的很好。
可你不好，很不好。你会因为停电而害怕的尖叫。
你会因为电脑中毒而无奈的打开电视。
你会因为一个人吃饭而倒尽胃口。
看见别人成双成对，你只能苦笑，
那些男人很好，却不是你的。

男人，请你好好对她，其实她很小，风一吹就会走

女人，请你好好，好好对自己，其实你很强大，不是谁都能把你击倒。

男人，这个世界美女如云，请别见一个爱一个。真爱只有一次，失去就无法找回来。

女人，这个世界很大，很安全。好人很多很多，下次，下次一定可以遇见一个他，一个很好很好的他。

男人，不要在多年以后才去感慨，曾经的那个她原来爱的那么真，那么深。

女人，这个世界上只有一样东西是永恒的，友情会老，爱情会变，唯有亲情能永恒。

男人，爱一个人要让她知道，女人是天生缺乏安全感的生物，不要把爱放在心里，要不厌其烦的告诉她，你很爱她。

女人，有的男人是不善言辞的，如果他会在半夜的时候为你拉一拉被子，那么，请相信，这比玫瑰来的更实在。

男人，其实有时候你很坏，可还是有个傻瓜很爱，很爱。

女人，其实有时候你很好，可还是有个笨蛋不会珍惜。

男人，如果，我是说如果，如果有个女子说她视你如命，你要坚信，那一定是真的。

女人，如果，如果有那么一个男子，会经常看你看到忘我，或傻笑，那，他绝对绝对爱上了你。

男人，所有的女人都很坚强，也很脆弱，每个女人都是独一无二的水晶，请好好保护属于你的那块水晶。

女人，你可能曾经被谁谁谁伤害过，但不要害怕，不要绝望，天黑了还是会亮，日出真的很美。

男人，因为你是男人，所以你的责任很大，所以你担子很重，所以，说过的话，一定要兑现。

女人，不要因为你是女人就过分依赖，你是独立的，永远。难过的时候可以哭，可是哭完，一定要微笑。

:: disclaimer ::
I do not own the article above.
I saw this on facebook, AGAIN. LOL.
and Yeah, sharing this here :)

Oh I finally update!

2010-03-26T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm.

Nothing beats
lying on the bed, staring at the orange sky through the window,
listening to songs and the rain outside
and just relax.

Sometimes, I still need you.
-- "Heart skipped a beat"
by
The Xx

觉得做人累了就看看.....

2010-03-24T10:28:00.001+08:00

学会沉默　　
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。

至少平静　　
在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐。

不要想如果当初　　
人生是一条有无限多岔口的长路，永远在不停地做选择。如果只是选择吃炒面或炒饭，影响似乎不大，但选择读什么科系、做什么工作、结婚或不结婚、要不要有孩子，每一个选择都影响深远，而不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生。生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样。。。这种充满怅然的喃喃自语，还是别再多说了吧。每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己。独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。

保持单纯　　
因为思虑过多，所以常会把自己的人生复杂化了。明明是活在现在，却总是念念不忘着过去，又忧心忡忡着未来；坚持携带着过去、未来与现在同行，你的人生当然只有一片拖泥带水。而单纯是一种恩宠状态。单纯地以皮肤感受天气的变化，单纯地以鼻腔品尝雨后的青草香，单纯地以眼睛统摄远山近景如一幅画。单纯地活在当下。而当下其实无所谓是非真假。既然没有是非，就不必思虑；没有真假，就无须念念不忘又忧心忡忡。无是非真假，不就像在做梦一样了吗?是呀，就单纯地把你的人生当成梦境去执行吧。

控制情绪别浪费了
今天的你，是不开心的你，因为有人在言语间刺伤了你。你不喜欢吵架，所以你离开；可是你只是离开了那，却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情，许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。因为，你只是一心一意地在生气。在情绪上做文章，这是对自己的浪费，而且是很坏的浪费。毕竟，生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明如你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。”

悄悄悄悄地回归平静　　
曾经有一段时间，你心情低落，甚至懒得拉开窗帘，看着窗外的阳光。因此你当然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的百合花。如此不知过了多久，总算有一天，你度过了心情的低潮，同时也想起了你的百合。天啊，可怜的花，它还活着吗？你战战兢兢地拉开窗帘，却见它迎风招摇，花颜可掬。原来在过去的这段日子里，你虽然忘了喂它喝水，老天却没忘了以雨露眷顾它呢。许多事物悄悄地在你的视线之外进行，而且悄悄地安排好了它们自己。天生万物，天养万物，一切其实无须担心。。。
你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遗憾。。。足矣！！！！

I know, I know, I've been lazeh to update my blog.
But this is really good.
HAahahahahaa.
Okie.

人，长得漂亮不如活的漂亮

2010-03-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

1.你以为最酸的感觉是吃醋吗？不是，最酸的感觉是没权吃醋。

2.低头要有勇气，抬头要有底气。

3.上天决定了谁是你的亲戚，幸运的是在选择朋友方面它给你留了余地。

4.人生就像一杯茶，不会苦一辈子，但总会苦一阵子。

5.傻与不傻，要看你会不会装傻。

6.女人用友情来拒绝爱情，男人用友情来换取爱情。

7.幸福是可以通过学习来获得的，尽管它不是我们的母语。

8.不要见一个爱一个，爱的太多，你的爱就要贬值。

9.想完全了解一个男人，最好别做他的恋人，而做他的朋友。

10.朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人

11.当我们搬开别人架下的绊脚石时，也许恰恰是在为自己铺路。

12.痛苦来临时不要总问：“为什么偏偏是我？”因为快乐降临时你可没有问过这个问题。

13.如果说我懂的道理比别人多一点，那是因为我犯的错误比别人多一点。

14.不是每句“对不起”，都能换来“没关系”。

15.世界上只有想不通的人，没有走不通的路。

16.地球是运动的，一个人不会永远处在倒霉的位置。

17.走的最急的是最美的景色，伤的最深的是最真的感情。

18.在事实面前，我们的想象力越发达，后果就越不堪设想。

19.当别人开始说你是疯子的时候，你离成功就不远了……

20.你永远看不见我眼里的泪，因为你不在时我才会哭泣。

21.时间就像一张网，你撒在哪里，你的收获就在哪里。

22.如果我能够看到自己的背影，我想它一定很忧伤，因为我把快乐都留在了前面。

23.理想和现实总是有差距的，幸好还有差距，不然，谁还稀罕理想？

24.说有上辈子的人是在骗自己；说有下辈子的人是在骗别人。

25.任何人都可以变得狠毒，只要你尝试过嫉妒。旗山网

26.常常告诫自己不要在一棵树上吊死，结果……在树林里迷路了。

27.爱情就像攥在手里的沙子，攥的越紧，流失的越快。

28.人生有两大悲剧：一个是得不到想要的东西，另一个是得到了不想要的东西。

29.成熟不是心变老，而是眼泪在眼里打转却还保持微笑。

30.问候不一定要郑重其事，但一定要真诚感人。

31.做与不做的最大区别是：后者拥有对前者的评论权。

32.人，长得漂亮不如活的漂亮。旗山论坛

33.有些事，明知是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，明知是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没有结局；有时候，明知没路了，却还在前进，因为习惯了。

34.同样的一瓶饮料，便利店里2块钱，五星饭店里60块，很多的时候，一个人的价值取决于所在的位置。

35.每个人出生的时候都是原创，可悲的是很多人渐渐都成了盗版。

36.真坏人并不可怕，可怕的是假好人。

37.浪漫是一袭美丽的晚礼服，但你不能一天到晚都穿着它。

38.把一切平凡的事做好即不平凡，把一切简单的事做好即不简单。

39.把不忙不闲的工作做的出色，把不咸不淡的生活过得精彩。

40.情侣间最矛盾的地方就是幻想彼此的未来，却惦记着对方的过去。

41.忙碌是一种幸福，让我们没时间体会痛苦；奔波是一种快乐，让我们真实地感受生活；疲惫是一种享受，让我们无暇空虚。旗山家园

42.理想很丰满，现实很骨感。

43.女人吻男人是一种幸福，男人吻女人是一种口福。

44.爱情永远比婚姻圣洁，婚姻永远比爱情实惠。

45.探索的旅程不在于发现新大陆，而在于培养新视角。

46.一个人能走多远，要看他有谁同行；一个人有多优秀，要看他有谁指点；一个人有多成功，要看他有谁相伴。

47.叹气是最浪费时间的事情，哭泣是最浪费力气的行径。

48.不是人人都能活的低调，可以低调的基础是随时都能高调。

49.谈恋爱就像剥洋葱，总有一层会让你流泪。

50.年轻时候，拍下许多照片，摆在客厅给别人看；等到老了，才明白照片是拍给自己看的。

51.就算不快乐也不要皱眉，因为你永远不知道谁会爱上你的笑容。

52.当大部分人都在关注你飞的高不高时，只有少部分人关心你飞的累不累，这就是友情。

53.绝口不提不是因为忘记，而是因为铭记。

54.让未来到来，让过去过去。。旗山论坛

55.微小的幸福就在身边，容易满足就是天堂。

56.成功有个副作用，就是以为过去的做法同样适应于将来。

57.天使之所以会飞，是因为她们把自己看得很轻……

58.试金可以用火，试女人可以用金，试男人可以用女人。

59.喜欢一个人，就是在一起很开心；爱一个人，就是即使不开心，也想在一起。

60.幽默就是一个人想哭的时候还有笑的兴致。

61.咖啡苦与甜，不在于怎么搅拌，而在于是否放糖；一段伤痛，不在于怎么忘记，而在于是否有勇气重新开始。

Nope I did not write this. :)

I saw this note at facebook, my friend pasted this,

and i thought the words are really meaningful and something worth pondering on.

No funny comments allowed dudes

2010-03-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

Yes, I would actually agree,
if you say I'm insensitive , or not being able to understand how you feel,
because I'm not you.
And in time, I might become like you, a mother.

However, nobody, absolutely nobody in the world would understand
how I actually feel inside
when I'm always putting a strong front, showing everyone I know
that I'm okay.

Why let yourself being the weakling?
Why not be a better person, in a sense that you are
no longer the present you, but at least a step forward to a better future you.
No one wants to be deteriorated, but to improve themselves every single day.
Do you actually want to be sympathized by everyone?
What do you get in the end? Yes, sympathy.
And how long does it last?
I know, it's a phase that you have to go through,
and it's only a few days since he's left.

I hope this doesn't last long,
and it's about time for you to pull yourself together
and do something.
Do whatever you want, ignore anything else that will stop you from doing so.
That's what life is about. Achieving something.
Today, I have walked 30 minutes, next time I'll make it double.
or
Today, I've baked a cake for myself, it's such a sweet indulgence
for once in a while.
Just a simple thing or a simple gesture would actually make your day better.
Why did you not think that way?
Why make your life harder and sadder when you can do so much better than that?

I'm his sister. I'm now like this when he has left.

I want to be a better person the next time he comes back.

This is my goal.

Now, get yourself one and time to learn how to swim

in the misery, instead of drowning in it.

:: p/s ::

As what the title suggests,

I would appreciate if nobody gives funny comments

or what you think it's funny.

This is no laughing matter.

My brother, Benjamin

2010-02-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

In a few days' time, you'll be leaving Malaysia
for Taiwan to further your education.
I am, indeed glad and happy for you, my brother.
For finally doing something right in your life,
for finally decided to not waste the time of your life anymore,
for finally starting a new journey, in your life, in every way.

Since I was younger, you were and still are a great brother to me.
You were my best friend, my utmost secret keeper,
my advisor, my supporter,
my best shopping companion and my yumcha partner.
You were always there, whenever I encounter a problem.
You have always given me advices whenever I needed one.

Now, I have only a few days time till you leave,
and yet I can't be there with you.
I know you'll be able to get everything ready by yourself,
and also you significant other.
I know you'll be fine, just be yourself,
but which part of yourself, you know it the best.

I can only imagine what's it like being sorta alone in somewhere far away from home,
I can only imagine what's it like
when you finally have to be independent, and do everything by your own.
We have always had others to take care of us, and in time,
we'll all have to end up taking good care of ourselves.
This is what we both are gonna go through,
for you will not be able to be there for me immediately, whenever I need you,
or vice versa.

I don't do promises, but I'm going to make an exception.
I promise, we'll always be there for each other,
and help out each other whenever one has met some problems.
I will do my best, to help you overcome your obstacles.
Be strong, my brother.
You're gonna be okay, and better than that. :)

Take care and Bon voyage!
I will be missing you, a lot. :)
May God bless you and best of luck in everything! :D

没有合适不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜

2010-02-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

刚搬进这个房子的那天，她整理完全部的东西，最后拿出一个非常精致的玻璃瓶，对他说道：“亲爱的，3个月内，你让我每哭一次，我就往里面加一滴水，代表我的眼泪。要是它满了，我就收拾我的东西离开这房子。”
爱没有合不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这么不信任我么，那还有什么可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”
女人说：“好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什么流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”

“那好吧，抱抱～！”
两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什么问题呢？”说完递了一本精致的小笔记本给男人。
男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到女人的眼泪可以这么多，盛得这么快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱。
他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎么写了那么多。男人一边看着，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎么的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦干净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来……”
男人沉默着。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾着玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈……”
“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自私的话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你……”
女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次……”男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了……”

沉默…长久的沉默……
还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那么强，谁都不肯退让。”

气氛有点尴尬。
本子里记录的事情都是那么细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那么的简单，男人看着这本子，似乎在体会着女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本觉得每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来最微小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望。
他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里。
“亲爱的别难过……”男人终于说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”
他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那么深深地爱着对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。

“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚么？”男人问。
“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那么快乐，一切都那么美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什么就变了呢？”

“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”

“……”女人楞了。
“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子。”
女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面。
“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那么，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”

女人钻进男人怀里笑开了颜
后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心的，赔两个给老婆！老婆尽管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！
原来真的没有合适不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜，能一起走一起进步是幸福的！

I came across with this post while I was browsing blogs, and it really makes me think,
about relationships, about the problems that we might/have encounter in relationships,
and what should we really do. It's really meaningful and we should all cherish everything that we have,
even though we know it's not suitable for us for the time being.

"A Love That Will Last" by Renee Olstead + random thoughts (5)

2010-02-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

Well,

how cool is that,

waking up to a romantic song

playing in your mind,

and feeling romantic as well.

Hahahaha.

That is what I felt the moment I woke up

from my dreams

even though I could not remember any single detail

of my dream.

Call me paranoid, or whatever,

but this is what I think :

The freshest and/or purest thought that you have

is that when you have absolutely nothing else in your mind

except this, when you woke up from your sleep.

I know, some people just don't think about anything at all. lol.

However,

in this case,

which I was "playing" this song in my head

while lying on my bed, thinking of nothing,

I'm thinking that I am indeed,

~~hunger~~

~~desperate~~

looking for a love that will last.

Well, who doesn't, right?

But, I think this is what I have been feeling these days,

despite the fact that I have been telling myself that

no more relationships for at least a year?

(1) Because I need to concentrate on my studies,

which some of you know, it's not easy for me now,

however it's possible to achieve my goal. Hahahaha.

(2) Because I am simply not interested in involving myself

in romance stuffs, for now.

Yeah lar, sometimes I do feel a lil bit jealous.

A wee bit. :P

(3) Because I am not interested in anyone yet.

HAHAHAHAAHA :D

Yes, gotme®

(4) Okay lar. Got lar. I do have someone in mind,

which is highly impossible. I'd prefer it to be like this,

crush. hohohoho. I love this. :P

Anyway, that doesn't have anything to do with this.

Because I have decided to be single.

(5) Okay okay. Wooohooo to SINGLE LIFE!

*as if I have never been single lol*

Nonetheless,

I am very much in love.

As always.

With life,

with music,

with family,

with friends

~~*don't worry, not you*~~

and many more.

Yes, I love this song too. :D

random thoughts (4)

2010-02-05T23:56:00.001+08:00

Yes,

I do play piano

whenever I feel emotional.

But that's just some times

because I'm not always emotional,

I have to be cheerful enough.

============================================

So, there will be times that

I happen to be slightly off, disturbed, sad, depressed,

and if I happen to be in front of the piano,

I would play something to make myself feel better.

I love my melody lines for most of the times.

Hahahaha.

Honestly, I do, and I do think that

they will actually calm me down.

Only need to work on the chord progressions,

which chord will be perfectly illustrate what's happening in my mind

and so on.

And yeah.... the accompaniment style has got to be varied.

===================================================

Just so you know,

I felt emotional earlier.

I played, and played, and played,

the melody lines were exactly how I wanted it to be,

I was talking, in a musical way.

I guess I didn't want myself to remember the unhappy moment

that I had earlier,

I cannot recall what I have played,

but I know that I was playing my heart out.

I couldn't recall any, maybe you were still an influence to me.

However, the influential level has dropped, gradually,

from time to time.

Which I am quite glad that it dropped.

=============================================

Moments later, Sabrina came.

She was standing at the door, looking at me.

I smiled. Hahaha. She's forever so cat-like, so adorable.

We had a chat, about many stuffs,

her coming trip to Australia this June *JEALOUS!!*

her family,

some other stuffs, including mine.

Ah well. I felt better. For spending quality time

with such a sweet friend.

So schweet.

===========================================

I had just another pleasant day

where everything was right,

things were right where they should be.

Nice conversations, really nice friends,

extremely nice experience today.

Speaking of which,

I have noticed the sky in the evening nearby my place

was really gorgeous.

The clouds were at the right places,

the colors of the sky was brilliant.

I couldn't catch the scenery with my camera phone,

but with the windows to my soul.

I am somehow contented.

Thank you GOD.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone :)

Me eez going for shopping.

Practice comes at night, hopefully.

ahahahaha.

Smiles! :D

:: p/s ::

I have changed my classical piece

from Mazurka to Nocturne. *phew*

Maybe I'll choose another Mazurka,

but this Nocturne piece sounds really nice.

I like it when I am attracted to it. Hehehe.

Daorae+music talk(1)

2010-02-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

So, I just came back from this very voluptuous dinner
a Daorae,

which is a pretty well-known Korean BBQ restaurant
in Kay Elle especially.
Very yummy and I feel so full now. *ooh*
Aunt Bibi and I ordered one set of pork and one set of mutton.
Both were really good. Hehehe.
Their taste and smell are equally appealing
since they were cooked in front of me. So.. yeah.

These are the side dishes. :D

I actually enjoy seeing food being prepared in front of me,
so I would get the idea how it is made.
Anyway, we decided to have this dinner was to celebrate
the first day of Spring *and oui, moi is wearing akai :D*, according to the lunar calendar.
Hahaha. It's was a lil expensive, but it's totally worth it :)

The class today was yet another pretty good one,
although, as the people in my class would know that
we didn't really give out our best, except for NK. He was brilliant.
I mean, he's a Jazzer all right, lol. And for that, I have to work harder. mmph.
Yes, we didn't really do much, and Eric taught us many things today,
which some of us already know, but in a more detailed way.
Whatever we have learned in our classes, no matter it's
Contemporary Harmony-------the theory of course,
for example : using chord scales
which provides the notes that we can use for our improvisation/solo
also for the voicing for the chords,
: using the hybrid chords to add in the color
: using the Sub V7s to give the particular effect
or arranging, or performance classes, we can, and however,
must apply what we have learned.

Then, he talked about the 12 bar blues form, the growth of the solos
which are the introduction, the development, the climax
and ways of bringing it down to end the solo.
Well, as you all know, solos are something like one instrumental is speaking up.
Although it seems that way, the other instrumentalist/vocalist should also
be aware that it is also like having a conversation.
Yes, you can speak all you want, but you must leave spaces
for others to give their feedbacks/opinions.
You cannot have conversation when you are talking by yourself all the way, right?
Talk and listen is the key of having a quality conversation,
the same goes to playing solos.
Furthermore, the more you are familiar with your band mates' playing,
the more you understand what they are doing, and the chemistry happens.
It's fun, when you know you can make the song interesting,
and doing it together with the others,
especially when achieving the climax of your solo.

The climax can be reached in many ways,
Dynamic, speed, higher register, repetition and sequential motifs.
Dynamic, as in the volume, it usually starts off at a much softer tone,
and it gradually increases as it reaches *usually* the third chorus of your solo.
Speed, the faster you play, the more tension you are creating,
which helps when you're reaching the climax.
Register, the range that you play,
which usually starts at the middle C range
till the E note which is an octave higher than the middle C, aka C4. lol.
As the solo goes on, you will slowly extend your range to a higher register,
till you reach at such a high range, you have already created the tension.
Repetition and sequential motifs are more or less the same story,
You play the same motif, not the same notes but the sequence from the motif.
For example, C F Eb (C7, C *minor* blues), 1 4 b3
then you will play the sequence, I repeat, not the same notes.
In 12 bar blues, F7 comes in the second bar(sometimes),
then you shall play F Bb Ab (F7, F *minor* blues) 1 4 b3
See? The numbers represent the notes and even though they're different notes,
the number stays the same, hence it's called the "sequence". :D
The sequential motifs, can also be recognized as the "rubber band theory".
The harder you pull, the tighter it's gonna be, hence the greater tension you're creating.
So, the more sequence you put in, the more tension is created.
C F Eb, D G F, E A G and so on.

However, it sometimes varies with different genres, for instance, Latin Jazz.
They like to start the solo loud, so they could keep the mood there.
Of course they will create their specific graphs for the climax.
Those, are awaiting for me to discover, in the future. Hehehehe. :P

And the homework for today *>3<*

Find chord scales for the chords, for 3 songs
Play arpeggios for solo(tensions included) in a melodious way
Transcribe*yes, again* a solo from any artist(Jazz), at least 2 choruses
and play it back.
work on my walking bassline

*head-pening*
hmmph.
I still have to practice a lot for my next piano lesson.
This, that, that, this.
Yeap.
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!

Take great care everyone :D
Still, wish me and everyone a gorgeous day tomorrow :)
Adios~

"Bicycle" by Caroline Lufkin + Hello again :)

2010-02-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

Well,

some of you might already know about this song.

It's

"Bicycle"

by Caroline Lufkin.

She's both singer and a songwriter,

like her sister, Olivia Lufkin,

and Olivia's more active in the entertainment biz.

She's an Uchina'a-born Lewchewan-American,

who is originally from Okinawa, Japan,

then moved to various places and guess what?

She's graduated from Berklee College of Music!

Ohmygawd!

I mean, I like her style of music and all,

So yeah, Yes I am happy to know such artist.

Her songs are always so calm,

and somehow heartwarming.

I love how she arranged her songs and

those instruments that she's used in most of her pieces

that give this simple yet sophisticated effect.

Simply amazing.

=============================================

Back to my daily practice,

which is not exactly. Hahahaaha.

I'm known for my laziness all right. :P

But today's not the only day that I've practiced,

rather a continuation.

Anyway, I have two practical classes tomorrow,

Aural Training and Piano lesson.

One history class, which is Malaysian Music History.

But that doesn't really require any practice, so yeah. lol.

Aural Training is going to be fine, I know,

because considering that I'm going to practice more

tomorrow morning, I think it's gonna be just all right.

As for my Private Instruction,

Hmm.

I have practiced, but still not confident enough to present

the pieces to Eric.

This is caused by insufficient practice. LOL.

I'm such a procrastinator I can even be a spokesperson for that wtf.

Mazurka is... doable, yet it's difficult.

Okie, I am going to try to look this half glass full.

Mazurka is difficult, but it's doable! Tadah! :D

So What is easy, for sight reading! lol.

Overjoyed... oh no. I have to try again. LOL.

Half glass full, half glass full!

It's pop! So I can do it! LOL.

~~Sigh I'm starting to think that it's so pathetic.~~

YES I CAN DO IT :D :D :D

Scales, aiya, can practice, so it's okay.

As for the chord progressions,

I need to practice them again, tomorrow morning and afternoon.

And that's for Private Instruction.

For Thursday's Jazz Ensemble,

Hmmm. I shall work on the swing comping tomorrow.

Jesica must help me! ROAR!

And the 3 well-planned solos for 12-bar blues.

How am I going to plan it well? Seriously?

Jamey Aebersold's collection isn't helping me exactly how I need it.

Mmm.

I am going to ask for help, as usual. lol.

Why, blues aint quite my forte all right. And swing too.

I like latin jazz. So yeah, there's something I like. :)

CHEERS FOR TOMORROW.

PRAY FOR ME

AND

WISH FOR VERY PLEASANT, BEAUTIFUL, INSPIRING,

AND FINALLY DAYS

---- Wednesday+Thursday+Friday

WITH FULL OF SMILES :D

PANIC!!!

2010-02-01T23:16:00.001+08:00

OH GAWD HELP MEEEEEEEE

ALL OF MEEEE~~~~

WHY NOT TAKE ALL OF MEEE~~~

*cough*

Oh yeah.

That's one of the song that I have to prepare

for the coming ensemble class this Thursday.

I know I know,

all because of these procrastination,

and my own laziness,

I haven't been really practicing.

Oh GAWD.

*slap*

Okie, let's see what are the three song, shall we?

"All the things you are"

Charlie Parker

"A Foggy Day"

Frank Sinatra

"All of Me"

Frank Sinatra

And I have to learn all these 3 songs,

and prepare 3 "well-planned" solos for

12-bar blues, in F.

Ooooh.

That's only for Jazz ensemble.

*nervous*

*hyperventilating*

*nervous*

Sorejya,

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Exercise is fun!

2010-01-31T23:47:00.001+08:00

Exercise is fun!

I just started exercising like one day ago

*officially*

lol.

And it was and still is going to be more and more fun

in the future, that is.

Well, the thought of getting started with

this exercise thing just came out of nowhere.

It's like I'm suddenly inspired. lol.

Okie,

maybe it's because of the japanese drama I watched.

Hehehehe.

First, I did some warming up exercises.

Mostly to tone down my thighs,

which I really need to work on,

and trust me,

no girls will be satisfied with their thighs,

EVER!

I started this one

while I was watching some Japanese drama.

*sorry I've forgotten the title,

but it was nice,

the guys were adorable, literally, hehehe*

Then, I wanted to try sit-ups.

And you know what,

EPIC PHAIL!

I cannot do sit-ups anymore,

and it makes me ....

feel sad?

LOL.

And a lil ashamed.

Shut up

unless you can do sit-ups

as fluent as how you walk.

*hmmph*

After that,

I borrowed some sort of

exercise equipment from my aunt

which you step on it,

and you twist your waist

by turning left and right repeatedly.

By doing that,

you can also tone down your thighs too!

Killing two birds with one stone.

Heh! :D

Yeap I know it's nice and convenient

when you can do two things at the same time.

Too bad that's like the only two things that I can do at one time.

Hmmm.

However,

I just did some push-ups.

OHMYGAWD!

I swear,

*as some of you know, I don't like to swear*

if I really do this 10 times everyday,

and I will actually get fit

after a month or two.

Okie,

let's ~~get twisted~~

twist for another 10 minutes :D

:: p/s ::

(1) Do not remind me or

force me to continue my exercise routine,

I might ... rebel. :D

some manja moment

2010-01-30T17:53:00.002+08:00

*eyes closed, enjoying the current moment*

OHAI.
everything was pleasant, until the thunder came.
Hmm. However, the perfect weather, the perfect lighting, the perfect place*bed*,
the perfect company,
my blister doesn't hurt anymore, the perfect drama at the moment,
I feel soooooooooooo gooooood.
I am loving today very much. :D

:: p/s ::
(1) The best way to forget,
is to not mention about it.
Even when you think about it,
let it be not more than a minute,
grasp that thought and throw it away.
(2) He's so adorable. He's so much alike
the other actor in Singapore, LOL
(3) Yes I know, amai~ :D
(4) I still don't like the guy above. Friggin noisy meh.

bonne chance pour moi

2010-01-29T09:56:00.000+08:00

Ah well.
This is a short post, before I post another one about yesterday's Jazz ensemble's class.

I know it's hard, and it's been really challenging for me.
Forcing myself to my new mindset,
saying everything is gonna be fine.
Every single time I meet this guy,
I always felt a lil different, and of course a lil melancholic.
However, I always put on this smile on my face,
and it seems that I am really making myself happy,
but I did it the hard way.
I understand everyone who has been through breakups, and this kind of breakups
where it did not really end well, however still be able to greet each other
and maybe have some small chats with smiles on your face,
but, deep inside, you know you're not really happy.

For now, I am really trying to keep all of these to myself,
and telling myself that I am gonna get over this,
although I am going to take some time.
No more "if only", but to overcome the situations I might encounter
in the future.
So now, I will do my best to focus on what I am supposed to,
despite that his presence will affect my concentration,
I will decrease the impact to the lowest.
Oh GOD, please, please give me the courage and strength,
enough till I feel much better than this.

Faith, and determination
are the things that I need now.
I must be firm,
and generous.
I have to grow up.

:: Listening To ::
"Comfortable"
by
John Mayer

2010-01-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

Oh lay me, lay me

in your arms.

Those warm cuddling,

make my weariness out of sight,

out of mind.

------------------------------------------------------------------

I am so very tired

after a couple of practices at the music centre

where my Aunt Bibi takes her piano lesson

and of course after a "sorta" long day.

A satisfying day as well, which puts a smile on my face

for quite some time.

However,

the pleasant things won't last long.

Soon I'll be immersing myself into stress,

and might be deep for a short while.

Everything went well today,

and Eric gave me some homework to do

and it's ... a lil massive.

-- choose a ~~harder~~ BETTER mazurka

-- practice scales in F, G and if possible, Bb *in 7 modes*

-- practice chord progressions in the keys mentioned above

-- practice "overjoyed" in the accompaniment style *sing the melody* omg

-- practice "So what" 4-4-4-3

And that's just Private Instruction - Piano lesson. *phew*

Yes it is, no time to slack.

*I know I want to, lol*

I have the weekend all by myself,

so I think it should be fine.

3 days weekend yo.

II-V-I licks here I come.

'doh.

>3<

Hello! :)

2010-01-27T00:50:00.001+08:00

Well, yeah. Thought of blogging, so here I am. *feels bad*
lol.
Okie, I promise I will blog about something some time later :)

So, as it's already 12 midnight now,
later in the morning,
I'll be having his class again, and another one in the afternoon.
Aural Training, speaking of which, I haven't really revised on the melodic section yet.
Well, I did it on Sunday, so maybe I should just look through it again later.
Oh my, and also the transcription. Check check.

As for the Private Instruction - piano class, he asked for "Mazurka" last week.
So, this week, I've prepared him two Mazurkas. One in C major *friggin easy I know*
and one in C# Minor, where the difficult part starts at the bottom of page 1 and the rest of page 2.
Gee. He's never gonna be easy on me.
I have a hunch that he's so gonna choose the latter one for me.
Although the C major one sounds more merrily and adorable. lol.
Like bunny hopping around.

Like this. LOL.

*bunny : hop hop hop, hop hop hop*

However, if that's the case,
I'm going to ask him to teach me how to play the ending. *smirk*
LOL. Trust me, it's not easy. It "sounds" easy to you I know, obviously.

LE CHORD PROGRESIONS

no, it doesn't really look like this,

but it's complicated enough to be like this as well.

The chord progressions, hmm. I totally got it on Monday, when Joel showed me how to play them.
However, I've kinda lost some of them, and I played my version.
Doesn't really matter, as long as it sounds right and it fits to the chord progression. lol.
But Joel's version is really nice.

And as for tomorrow *Thursday*,
you might be seeing me glooming in the emo aura.
Oh yeah. Just might. *deep breathe*
Just so you know, ensemble classes always give me this kinda stress.
Well, for that, I've practiced the "Blues for Alice" by Charlie Parker,
in 3 different ways :
(i) Both hands comping
(ii) Melody on the right hand, comping on the left hand
(iii) Melody on both hands.
(iv) Play the melody reversely
(v) Read the notes upside down
(xxxxvi) I don't know, you tell me. :D
And also the 20 II-V-I licks in Eb major.
And also 12-bar blues in 4 different keys : C, F, G and Bb.
Bb is a lil tricky. Okay. I can do this. :)

Anyway....................

Let's hope that I will have
TERRIFIC+BRILLIANT+MARVELOUS+GORGEOUS days
Today *Wednesday* & Tomorrow *Thursday* & The Day after Tomorrow *Friday*.
Heh.

FIGHTO!!!

2010-01-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

Okie. Before I officially KO-ed, *just cuz I'm exhausted*
I just feel like saying........

After the past two days (Thursday+Friday) of nonstop emo moments
and whining,
I've finally decided to stop and actually will do something.
Yes, I'll get my spirits fired up and I shall start practicing tomorrow.

On Friday, I only practiced a little, really.
First I played the song that I'm going to play in my coming Friday Performance,
"Find My Way" by The Gabe Dixon Band,
then I briefly played something I might be playing for my Piano lessons.
Remember the pop song that I am still considering?
Yes, "Overjoyed" by Stevie Wonder.
This time, everything on my own, without the band
and I have to make the song sound full.
And then, I practiced my scales. The modes.
It's only the C key, and it's the easiest key you can ever play.
It was doable, though the fingering isn't as smooth as I wanted it to be.
Anyway, I will practice them tomorrow. And.. ohgawsh, my chord progressions.
ugh. I will get my classical piece done first.
Which I have finally decided, "Mazurka in C Major Op. 24 No.2" by Chopin.
Oh yeappie. It is Cmajor and there's a modulation at the middle part.
So, yeah. I shall do it. :D

Hell yeah. :D
Have a great weekend everyone :)
Oh I just remembered I have a class tomorrow morning.
Okay. :)

FIGHT!!!

Huggies

2010-01-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

I need a hug.

I don't know why.

Maybe it's because of the stress I've got

during this week.

This is only the 2nd week of the semester,

and I have about 18 more to endure.

I guess,

by the end of this semester,

I'll be able to withstand all sorts of stress.

Okay, maybe not all,

but some, more than now at least.

I know,

for all the things that I'm doing and will be doing

from now and then

cannot be compared to

the others at my college.

(my batch and the seniors especially)

Today, after the only class of the day - Jazz+R&b Ensemble,

I somehow felt relieved but not for long.

I could feel stress pressing me down

and I was really tired.

The homework we've got from last class

wasn't complete

and today we've got more.

And I just remembered the transcription I need to do

for Monday's Aural Training's class.

And I have to teach a friend of mine to play a jazz piece

on Saturday, which is not a hard task.

However, it gives me pressure.

So, I came up with this conclusion,

"What gives me the pressure,

gives me the happiness too."

I still need a hug

and

Oh GOD Please,

just give me more faith and wisdom and energy.

I need to go on.

One more day, to the weekends.

*phew*

One thing at a time

2010-01-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

I feel nauseous, like I'm gonna throw up any second.
I feel dizzy, like I'd lean on some surface to withstand my body.
I feel uncomfortable. I don't know why.
I feel tired.
I feel stressed.
I feel sleepy. because I'm stressed.
I don't feel like to care about absolutely anything. Because I am pretty tensed up.
I don't feel like being expected to do certain things,
although I have already planned to do them anyway.

And
I have so many things to do.
One thing at a time, and trust me, it's gonna take forever.
Oh geez. GOD HELP ME.

Spare me, please...

2010-01-20T16:58:00.000+08:00

I just finished my final class of the day, which is my piano lesson - Private Instruction (3).
It's not something I'll be able to relax myself a bit.

I guess, there are two-three days which will be quite stressful for me,
Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
The days which have Eric's classes.
Sigh.
I can hardly breathe.

First off, the aural training class was okay, although it wasn't pleasant
compared to the previous classes, Eric was a lil pissed off.
Well, he didn't lose his temper, so it's considered a lil. lol.
After that, it was Malaysian Music History, a very... informative, yet making-all-of-us-sleepy-ish.

Before the second class of the day started, Jesica and I went to have lunch together.
It was pretty obvious that she was very exhausted and she couldn't concentrate in the first class.
She shared her problems and as a friend,
I listened and tried to solve, or at least make her feel better.
Honestly, I couldn't really be in her shoes while she was telling about the stress and tension.
Until I got into my piano lesson with Eric.
Now, I can understand her situation perfectly, except the part that she has gigs outside.

When Eric and I started the class, he gave me choices to choose for my 3 genres,
Classical, Pop and Jazz.
I thought I could play Beethoven's sonata for the classical piece, and I was wrong.
He demanded Chopin, and he actually specifically stated "Mazurka".
Now, I have to find something to fit his requirement and present it as soon as possible.
That's not all.
I might be playing Stevie Wonder's "Overjoyed" for my pop,
in a much more complicated way, R&b especially. The melody, the chords, the voicing.
Jazz?
Either John Coltrane's "Impressions" or Miles Davis's "So What".
Both are modal pieces, based on the requirement for my level,
because all the scales that I need to practice for now on, are "modes".
From Ionian to Locrian, 7 modes in total for each 12 keys.
As for the Chord progressions, I would really need help for that.
I-7 IV-7 V7(b9 b13) I-7
I-7 bVImaj7 II-7(b5) V7(b9) I-7
III-7 V7/II (b9 b13) II-7 V7(b9 b13) I-7.
Bonus!
The arpeggios are basically all from what I've learned before,
PLUS Dom(b9) and Dom(b5)
in 4 inversions, most probably (if root's included, which is the easiest).

So tell me,
am I really really really going to survive this semester?
It's not really possible, unless I push myself real hard.
Just like what Eric usually do.
This is just the beginning, peeps.

Wish me lots and lots of luck!!
:D
I have to make myself smile, otherwise. =.=

Just ranting(1)

2010-01-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

Someone please guide me,

how do you guys actually deal with this??????
I don't understand.

Okay, I know. Take it easy, take it slow.
but 9/8 isn't funny.
It's not easy.
I, as an impatient person,
is going mad if she's going to practice this for the rest of the night.
However, the melodic part was much more easier compared to the rhythmic part,
I'm serious.

I just don't understand,
why is the rhythmic part so hard,
and it's not just now,
it's all the time!

There's nothing else I can do,
besides keep on practicing it until I get it.
But, not anymore, for tonight.
I will go bonkers.
Will be practicing something else.
:)

Smiles!
:)

What will come in the future, it will come.

2010-01-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

I know it seems very very ridiculous now.

Accept the fact, Jeannie.

Hyun Jun is dead.
T_________________T

Yeah. I guess, that's how much I love this tv series,
"IRIS".
T_________________T

胡说（1）

2010-01-19T00:04:00.001+08:00

开学已经一个星期了。
最近，不是急着把重要的都记下来，
然后在可以喘息的时候重温那天一切的记录，
就是一直在想着，新的学期，应该怎样正确的过呢？

浪费时间，已经成为我的习惯。
虽然，我所浪费的时间，已经每一天慢慢的减少。
而我觉得，这是我今年第一个有进步的事情。
安排时间，正在慢慢变成我的习惯。
因此，我不喜欢浪费时间。
虽然每一天都可能会有意想不到的事情发生，
但是，我都尽量把这些可能性加于考量，
同时减少计划变更的风险。

这样有规矩的生活，难道你们都不觉得单调，乏味吗？
我想要每一天都能过着有小惊喜的生活，可是没有人可以给我。
如果你说，只要注意你身边的大小事物，就能发现我所谓的小惊喜了。
这样，真的行吗？

下个星期五，对我来说，不是很重要的日子。
但是，为了不让我自己太过失望，
还是要努力。

努力，是为了自己的未来更美好。
这样老套的说法，我不得不同意。
但是我们都知道，每一个明天，都会比今天更好。
为了以后可能会发生的事情，现在就要做好一些准备。

其实，我更认为享受现在准备的过程，
会比以后所会达到的目的的心情，
更充实，更满足。

surreal

2010-01-14T21:02:00.001+08:00

Even if it's just a dream,

it felt so real.

I felt so calmed

and comfortable

in your arms.

Even when there's more,

it was like no other.

I saw your face,

but I couldn't recognize you

in anywhere I've been.

You're a stranger in my reality.

So, tell me,

where are you?

"OH YEAH" by 盧廣仲

2010-01-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

唯有你的声音

能让我觉得舒服一点。

唯有你的歌，

能让我觉得

心情

真的能够

一下子从谷底

飙到山顶。

我

今天过得非常不错！

虽然言之过早，

不过以现在的心情

就足以开心一整天。

OH YEAH!

I am yet happy enough

2010-01-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

The sudden thought

being under the bed...

If only my bed legs were

tall enough,

for me to hide under.

And now I wonder,

what I am supposed to pursue,

exactly?

People talked too much around me.

I am now lost,

in a few ways

which I don't even bother to find out the solutions.

Maybe, that's why I gave up

on those few things.

Give me life.

A life.

Give me,

something worth enough

to make me stay positive.

(not literally)

This is when

and

where

I have chosen to be alone,

unapproachable,

unfathomable.

I guess this is how I feel

when I'm listening to

Caroline Lufkin's songs.

They are beautiful.

31, Like any other :)

2009-12-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

Unlike the past years, or maybe past two years,
I'm spending the last day of the year,
physically, ALONE.
Though I'm not, spiritually.
Because I know I'm not. :)

This afternoon, I planned to go out
to have my hair trimmed and maybe walk around the town.
However, I was still feeling a little unwell
and my dad gave me a few more instructions on the task
that he has given during this holiday.
So, I stayed home and completed it in no time. *tak malu*
hahahaha.

Then, later in the evening, my mom wanted spaghetti for dinner
and asked me to cook the dinner for her.
So, I went out to the Giant Hypermarket to get some groceries done.
Before I step out of my house, I noticed that the evening
was beautiful and relaxing, although the wind was blowing not-so-gently.
However, the journey from my place to the hypermarket was short
because I was walking so quickly, because I saw some dogs wandering on the road,
and some people were looking at me.
Not being paranoid, but it is better to be alert
especially when I was alone, right?
So, I got my groceries done :

(1) Prego Sauce "fresh mushroom"
(2) Yoghurt drink (strawberry flavor)
(3) Kinder Bueno *aaaah~* and yes, I can hear the hallelujah chorus singing in my head
(4) Butterscotch bread
(5) Jelly sticks! *YUM!*

Came back home and started to cook my spaghetti.
I couldn't bring my laptop to my kitchen, to prevent from getting the oil stains on it.
So, I put on my "Julie & Julia" 's soundtrack on the media player in my phone,
and it was perfect.
I was totally in the mood of cooking, and everything seemed to be right on its track.
And when everything was done, nobody came to the dinner,
and YES, that includes my MOTHER,
who asked me to cook it.
In the end, I ate it all by myself. Grr.

But, that didn't ruin my last day of 2009.
The spaghetti was actually delicious and I enjoyed myself every single bit of it.
The kinder bueno was totally the-o-word,
almost like the daim cake I ate at IKEA boy I want to eat that DAIM cake again!!!!!!
and
the Jelly sticks, YUM.
*note to self : Get at least 3 packets before I get up to KL. It's a must!!*

The night was ordinary, just like every other day in every year.
That's how it should be, in my mind.
No, there will be no overview of my 2009.
I believe, most things that are necessarily to be spoken, is stated.
And I know, there will be times that I will start dwelling in my past,
and things will be spilled out in time :)

:: p/s ::
Btw, I forgotten to get to Baskin Robbins again!!!
It's 31st of the month! OMG!
Next month, YES. MUST. LOL. :D

Random thoughts (3)

2009-12-30T20:20:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure if this is how should I feel, now in particular
as it is NYE today.
Or maybe I'm just too easily influenced, especially by songs.
For one whole song, I can be so hyped up, and I just wanna dance.
Drowning into the crazy tunes and beats, it's just too good to experience.
Then, when it switched to something calm,
or even worse, some really emo songs, slow ones,
I will just stay on my chair/the sofa/the floor,
and give a blank stare, till the song is over and something really upbeat comes.

Well, that also happens when I was looking into my past,
reviewing my memories, and suddenly remember something.
Even when the memory is not really pleasant or happy
and I was listening to something which is quite on the contrary,
I wouldn't feel so bad.

And when that happens, I'm either already in my own world,
or waiting something to change my mood at the moment.
Sometimes when something familiar caught my attention,
I'd like to stare at it, for how long I may take,
I'd still like to stare at it, because somehow
that's where I get my inspirations from.

In turmoil...

2009-12-22T15:03:00.001+08:00

It's a new day,

even though half of the day has officially gone.

The sky, looked like the one we look up during evening hours,

for the past few days

and

honestly, I cannot explain why am I feeling this.

Then again, I cannot explain what exactly am I feeling,

especially when it's for days already.

And, I find that I'm back to the one that who's so self-absorbed, selfish and uncaring, self-centered,

and all I can do, is think about myself.

Which is why, I am in turmoil and in a struggle of my own life.

I am not really making it complicated

but to figure out what exactly that I am looking for in my life.

Why is this happening again, low self-esteem again?

This has to end. Seriously.
By the way, I think i need to be on hiatus.
Till then. :)

I find that, the more the days has gone,

the older I grow *which is not really that important*

and

the more feelings I have learned, yet unable to explain.

And when I decided to analyze it, it's nothing.

Which tells me that I am always feeling those unnecessary feelings,

or I am simply numb, that I cannot interpret myself anymore.

Or, I have lost myself, bit by bit.

I cannot rely on exploring per se again and again.

Because every time I do this, the next day, or maybe longer than that,

I'll have to do it again.

Smile :)

2009-12-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

some random picture

:)
I like, can? :)

Good morning world :D

I'm up, earlier than the usual days
when I'm home. *those days in melacca doesn't count*
I got up from my bed, feelin' fresh and opened the door
that connects my room to the laundry room behind,
and I did some house chores.

And now I'm sitting in front of my laptop,
listening to random songs.
Just when I was really enjoying my morning,
that song appeared,
"Empty" by The Click Five.
It was a song between me and him, not many people knew about that.
Somehow, my intuition was to skip that song, and I pressed "next".
My heart did feel better after I did what I thought it was right.
On second thoughts, those things that I will have to face in the future, are inevitable.
Sooner or later, I will have to overcome them.
So I thought, why not NOW?
Then, I clicked back on that specific song, and I listened through it.

It wasn't that hard. Really.
I just need some time.
Another long period of time, I suppose.
But it's okay, Jeannie.
I can do this.
:)
Smile :)

Right, it's all

2009-12-14T12:21:00.000+08:00

You know,

the beauty of positivity,

shines through every corner of your heart.

Before you know it,

the day has been going great,

despite the insignificant disturbance,

and

you're still feeling great and motivated.

This is how I feel today.

I finally got started with what is left undone earlier,

the tasks my dad has left me.

And when I'm doing it,

I'm listening to

500 Days of Summer's

Original soundtrack.

Most of them are nice,

especially

Regina Spektor's "Us".

It's almost like a gumption,

I feel so much better

and motivated.

Right, it's all,

right it's all,

right it's all right.

------ "Hero"

Regina Spektor

:: p/s ::

Then again,

I need my piano.

Or piano that is not mine..

I just need one to play something.

Random thoughts (2)

2009-12-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

It seems to me,

I’m taking a slow stroll in my past.

For instance, I was sitting on the same bed with my mom,

in the ward.

I used to do that when I was a kid, and I missed that.

Because I cannot even remember when was the last time

I sit beside my mom like this, and with her caressing my back.

I really missed it.

Went to the same hospital, at a different time,

and for the same purpose.

I actually cannot remember which floor did I come for the previous time.

However, it’s nothing different.

This time, is somehow different, in a way that,

I’m given more freedom and I’m happily obliged

with my purpose being here.

And add to that, I have my laptop with me,

and some movies inside. :D

This gotta be good.

Every thing’s gonna be fine.

Just grin :)

2009-12-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

Mmm

Homeeee.

'nuff said.

It's time to pamper myself,

again.

:: p/s ::

(1)Will be going to Melacca on Tuesday

for 3 days,

that means I will only spend ONE day

in Kluang for this week.

Must bring more movies/DVDs up.
Otherwise I'll be bored to death, like literally.

T_____T

(2) Chocolate didn't work. How??

(3) Love watching dramas. :D

Few of my best days of my life :D

2009-12-05T13:16:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe.
Haven't update myself for.. maybe about two days.
:)
Anyway, here it is. :)

Thursday 3rd December 2009

I got up early on that day, around 9 something in the morning. I planned to leave around 12 and found myself 2 hours free to spend. So, I proceeded to procrastinate for more than that. LOL. I freaked out when I saw the time was almost reaching 12 noon and I panicked, as usual. :P I checked my list of things that I needed to bring back to my lovely hometown :) and found most of them in my bags. Everything was in a rush and I overlooked my white jacket was hanging on my chair. I left it there so that I wouldn't forget to bring it along with me. I was such a fool. :( And yes, I actually forgotten to bring it back. :D I brought the black jacket back with me though. hahaahaha. After most of the things are checked, I rushed off and walked down the slope as usual, to get to the bus stop right down the slope. And add to that, I brought 3 bags in total, One full of my clothes and necessities, one with laptop and one with my midi controller. Boy that was really torturing my poor petite physique. LOL.

Anyway, everything was all right and I reached the bus station earlier than I expected. So, I sat at some empty space and chilled till the time that I'm supposed to get on the bus. When it was approximately 10 minutes to 2 o'clock, one chinese old man came and sat beside me. He was really old and he looked pretty weak. Few seconds after he sat down, he asked if I could give him some money to buy a bus ticket for him. I almost fell for it and suddenly there's some voice in my mind said that this could be a scam. Well, I've heard about cases like this and I was a lil uncertain if I should trust him. However, I did not. Count myself lucky enough to avoid this scam. Otherwise, I feel sorry for him and I know there would be someone to help him. Le sigh.

As most of you know, I am a ... kinda clumpy person. Hehehe. :P I got on my bus and I stumbled all the way to my seat. (*clears throat* I had 3 bags on me, mind you.) Then, I sat down waited for the journey to start. As usual, the bus won't start till 10 minutes has passed and I was already stoning. The beginning was like no other, started off from the centre of the city and I saw there were a lot of people on the streets, locals and tourists. I don't know why, but when I saw the emotions on their faces, I can somehow relate myself to what was happening around them. It's like I'm able to get myself involved into their stories just by looking at them. Or maybe I just have really hyperactive imagination, that's all. Heh. A few moments later, I felt sleepy so I took a nap for about 1 hour plus. By the time I woke up, I've already passed by the Xiao En Memorial Park. I will usually look outside at the memorial park every time I pass by, but not this time. Anyway, I still looked outside, all the greens, the forests and the mountains covered by tall trees, it was a really nice sight. In addition, I was listening to Hans Zimmer's songs, The Holiday's OST specifically. I was really overwhelmed and wondered if I could ever compose something like this, so sophisticated and reaching people's hearts like this.

Reached the bus station that I requested to drop off and saw my dad, for the first time in about 3 months. Honestly, I didn't realize that it's been that long since the last time I came back. No wonder I felt so different from the previous few times, because this time is for a long time (a month+) and not gonna hangout as often as I did the last time I came back. Hehehe. I'm so homey nowadays. I guess it's because that I've been really busy with my studies at college, assignments and examinations came right after each other. It wasn't as hectic as you see here, but to a procrastinator like me, I have been really busy and I actually enjoyed it pretty much. Moreover, I actually wanted the new semester to start as soon as possible, like next week. Either I worked myself too hard, or I got addicted for being busy. Nonetheless, it's holiday for me now. Hahahaha. So I better enjoy myself now or I will have to wait for another 6 months.

Reached home and I quickly get my stuffs unpacked and settled myself in front of the laptop, to get connected with people (don't get the wrong idea, I'm not that pathetic kay (: ) and I walked to the garden outside. The rambutan tree is growing and I can't wait to see the big tree that I missed. (My dad chopped it off so that it could grow bigger, in a way) and there I saw Momiji. Cute as ever, but very naughty as usual as well. Hmmm. Things were still the same and I'm glad that it's the same, so I wouldn't have to get myself familiarize with new stuffs. Mom and grandma were still at the hospital in Melacca, so I had dinner with my second brother, Benjamin aka Ben. Before we get to our dinner, we went to Giant Hypermarket to do some groceries and of course ingredients for me to cook spaghetti for the next day. We had roti canai for our dinner and it's still as delicious as I remembered. Not long after, mom came back and we talked for a while, about her back and my stuffs. Noted, I have to get up to Hospital Mahkota in Melacca to accompany my mom for her treatment and minor surgery for her back, spinal cord in specific. Hope everything will be fine. :) Wish us luck. :D

Friday 4th December 2009

Woke up early but I continued to lie in bed for a while just because I missed my bed so much. hehehe. I didn't go for the jog that I promised myself because I had aching on both my shoulders and my arms. But I still went for the breakfast with Ben at some chinese shop nearby. In my opinion, it wasn't as great as what my Aunt Bibi told me earlier, it was really so-so. We went back home after the breakfast and Ben went out to pick his girlfriend up and they did the groceries for me. Hehehe. After they came back, I started to prepare our lunch, La Spaghetti. LOL. Seriously it's just a simple meal and I improvised a little on the sauce. However, the outcome is, I guess, my grandma didn't like my spaghetti after all. Aahahaha. So I'll have to practice more, and don't worry, I will never get tired of spaghetti. :) Chilled myself with one episode of "Heroes" season 4 before I get started with the task that my dad asked me to do. I didn't do much because Ben said we would have to go out soon. So, we went out, to do some shopping. YAY! :D Something that I was really happy about.

We went to "Suteki" a hair saloon that I regularly go whenever I come back. This time, was to get my fringe trimmed and it was nicely done. :) That's number one. Then, we went to BCB, a very very ancient shopping mall that have ever existed in this very town. Okay, it was somewhere that I usually hangout with my friends, and that one old friend of mine about 4 years ago. We ditched the place when Kluang Parade was finally built. Anyway, that's not the point. Hahaha. We went to BCB to get a bag, that Ben's girlfriend has been meaning to buy. So he decided to buy it and give it to her as a christmas present. Aww how sweet. Even I got jealous. Hehehe. Kidding. Well, we were lucky to see the bag is still in stock and the last time Ben went to the shop, it wasn't there, and the price was literally doubled! We got the bag and with a reasonable price. We ARE happy. :D

After that, we went to Kluang Mall, the newest shopping mall in Kluang. No need to comment on this one, you'll have to come and see it yourself. LOL. We headed there, to get my heels. I need a pair cuz I've forgotten to bring my other pair back, which are the pair that can match with the dress that I planned to wear on Saturday(today) for my cousin's wedding dinner. There were 3 shops that sell shoes in Kluang Mall and I finally found the one that I wanted in the last shop. Black heels with straps, but not really that strapped up. Its design is simple and one of a kind, so it's kinda my thing. :D The next thing I bought was facial mask and facial wash and off we went home. With satisfied hearts, of course. Before we headed home, we bought some otak-otak, some local cuisine, spicy fish cakes, which turned out badly. Not spicy, too much coloring and all. NEVER gonna get otak-otak there again. NEVER. However, that's not a downer for us. :) We were still happy.

We got home after dinner at grandma's place. We rested for a while and I was trying out my outfit with my new heels. Then, my mom asked I could accompany her to Giant to get some fruits for tomorrow. So, I went off with her and found ourselves a night market behind the shop lots. I was pretty surprised cuz I never expected to have one, so near to my house. So now I know it's always Friday night. Nice. :) After we're all done with our groceries*again*, we went back home and to my surprise, my mom gave me some movies that I have always wanted since forever! ---- "500 days of Summer", "Eternal Sunshine of Spotless mind", "4 christmases" and "The Time Traveler's Wife". Hmmm. And I have heroes 4. Okie I have so many stuffs to watch during this semester break. So, the more reason for me to be happy and grinning non-stop.

Seriously, a great start for my semester break. And I'm looking forward for the rest of it. :) Although I don't have my driving lessons anymore, I'm still friggin happy and no one can make me otherwise. :D

:: p/s ::

I'm sorry if the last paragraph seemed a lil messy

and unorganized.

Because I'm in a hurry to get prepared.

Busy weekend I have.

Saturday(today) - wedding dinner, at Melacca

Sunday - Grandma(dad's side) 's birthday celebration.

Gotta take some great photos along the way. I need my inspirations. :D

Gumption

2009-12-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

It still does make me feel like crying
or..
rather like redemption,
whenever I listen to this very song,
"Everything is beautiful"
by
Starfield.

Sigh. Okie not sigh.
But I always feel the urge of running away,
and just keep on running,
as if I'm running towards something/someone
who's gonna change my life,
forever.
Or maybe, for a certain time of period,
and let me "evolve" from time to time.
I don't dislike this feeling, really.

I just feel a lil happy,
the fact that I'm going back today, in the afternoon.
It's going to be a great start of the end of this year.
Heh.

:: p/s ::
make plans for my holiday,
a list of it.
:)

Everything's right :)

2009-12-02T13:21:00.000+08:00

For it's a good start of the day,

I'm feeling good. :)

Listening to the songs

that I did

earlier this year,

it's definitely good.

It feels like a brand new day,

rather the beginning of a new year.

Yeah, that's exactly how I feel

when I'm listening to those songs,

happy, positive, settled and refreshed.

Then again,

I think I need a new playlist again.

LOL.

I'll be having the whole December to myself.

To do whatever I want durh. :D

Weeeee~~~~

Random thoughts (1)

2009-12-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm.

Do not question me why,
do I have the urge of being at the airport,
or even being in the plane,
flying high in the sky.
On top of that,
even my mind was serene when I was thinking of the real situation.

Another so-called finals aftermath, I suppose.
lol.
Well, right after my exam reached its end, I called my parents
to let them know about it and it was pleasant, not that it's not supposed to be like this, but yeah.
And then, I was off to get my bus ticket
and to survey around Starhill aka Bukit Bintang for my future spouse, lol, keyboard.
Yeah, the more I looked around and tried the keyboards/synthesisers or midi controllers,
it's better to have keyboards, though the price is a lil more expensive than the others.
So, tomorrow I'll have to ask around, again.
To have better options and to have better idea in what I'm supposed to look for.
And, if it's possible, I'd like to get one next year, by June. Hopefully. :)

Now, my mind channels into the places that I've been to earlier today.
I was all alone, walking around
with the company of strangers and other pedestrians on the road.
With my earphones on, with the songs that I desired to listen to.
It's been a while and I still want some more of this.
It's really good to be alone once in a while, to not have someone by your side,
it's more like clearing off your mind in a way.
Yeah, I find myself more peaceful and more alert to my surroundings,
weird, huh? :)
It's actually almost the same as what I feel now, "being at the airport, on the plane and all".
Okie, I admit, I'm just slightly overdosed of watching "Attention Please".
Hahahaha. It's not a bad thing, kay... I just wanna feel relaxed, that's all.

I don't need anyone to be by my side, just to share my feelings with,
and to have someone understanding me, as in, nodding to whatever I say.
it's exhausting and come to think of it, it doesn't feel real and right, in a way.
Not many understand how I feel about this, which is good,
because the others simply don't have to.
I'm not just someone that you "understand" and there you go again, with nodding.
Okay fine, maybe I have different definition of understanding between friends,
lol, and yeah, let me be. :)

Enough said.
One more day,
just one more day,
I'll be officially free.
I'm already through with the hardest one,
so I can do this even better.
GOD BLESS!
:D

A "lil" stressed

2009-11-30T23:39:00.001+08:00

I suddenly feel a lil

envious

of those whose birthdays are in
December.
I don't know why exactly am I feeling this way,
maybe because of the stress that I'm having,
and the pre-aftermath, if there's such word, lol.
And maybe because the songs I'm listening to now,
all by Lisa Ono.
Sigh I feel so calmed.

You wouldn't want to talk to me
if you knew that I was busy
BANGING my poor piano earlier
cuz of the frustration ------- my exam's friggin tomorrow.
And i don't effin care.
I'm just gonna do my best, and whack whatever I can for my solo
in my jazz piece, "Night & Day".
Like I care how it would sound like now. Grr.

I'm tired
and
my brain is apparently in "sleep" mode.
So yeah.
I guess that's it for today.
I'll post up something more positive some time soon.
As soon as I get my final final final final final exam done,
and get myself happy.
:)

I need to shop, to make myself happy.
No, I'm not a shopaholic, and I'm not a potential one,
so don't worry. :)
I just need to breathe.
Damn.

You only live once

2009-11-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Aaaah...

There goes my final piece of,
chocolate.
*nom*
:D
I feel calmed and all, but not excited and hyper. LOL.

Since yesterday, I've been eating a lot of carbs and chocolate.
Gooohh.
Spaghetti, instant noodles*it's been a while... lol.* and chocolate that is. :D
I eez happy!
By the way, it's actually the first time I cook spaghetti like this,
with tuna, garlic and other seasonings. lol.
Interesting........
I shall cook that again when I get back to hometown,
where the resources are always available.
And even when they're not,
I can always walk to the Giant Hypermarket to get all the ingredients I need
with just around 10 minutes walk.
No pain. Hence no gain. *grin*

The chocolate was actually to calm my disturbed mind.
Honest.
My piano, one of the keys is ... faulty.
I can't play properly with that note,
because whenever I hit the note, the other key would hit with it,
causing a dissonant sound, which I don't like at all.
Dai kirai desu. :(

Hmmm.
I need to practice.
Exam's coming, it's tuesday and wednesday.
I can do this.
I've grown, so I must act like one too.
Though I've encountered some obstacles along the way,
I can do this, with not only my persistence, and also GOD's help.
I'm so doing the last minute thing. Hahahahaa.
Blame me not.
But I will do my best and get this done and over with.
:D

Me eez strong!
So I will do my best,
and shall have absolutely no regrets.
Because I know that time is unforgiving.
:)

:: p/s ::
Btw,
I've been watching a jap drama,
"Attention Please" nowadays,
and I love learning new japanese words
whenever I watch one,
and..... learning different life lessons
when I watch one.
It's nice. Overwhelming, yeah..

Me eez HYPER! :D

2009-11-26T18:09:00.000+08:00

I AM HYPER

LIKE MAD

LIKE EXTREMELY HAPPY

cuz of many reasons

but

definitely not because of

redbull.

Heh sorry

but I'm not really a fan of redbull.

ANYWAY!

I've just finished one of last two exams

of the semester,

Performance studies (2).

Though the whole semester was

somewhat alike the one last year

and what I've been through

along with my classmates

were overwhelming.

Come to think of it,

I've almost forgotten the way

Eric teaches us in class

was actually benefiting us

though the process may seemed otherwise.

Hehehehe.

Well, the outcome is always worth looking forward to.

But it's too early to say so.

Hehehe.

I have one more exam to go,

remember?

Anyhow,

I'll do my best

and get my exam done

with satisfaction.

I can do this.

Gosh I still feel so thrilled.

and

loved.

Yay.

:: p/s ::

I'm going to watch

"Twilight saga - New Moon"

TONIGHT!!!

TONIGHT!!!! OMG IT'S TONIGHT!!!

not a misguided ghost

2009-11-25T22:07:00.001+08:00

I am somehow feeling

aimless.

It's the time of the semester,

the end is approaching and its steps are so swiftly.

And the way I feel now is like

leaving my home behind,

but I'm just leaving college for the coming semester break,

for one whole month.

It's a little unbelievable that I'm feeling like this,

it's as if I'm not coming back again.

I hope that doesn't happen. Hahahaha.

Sigh.

I wished that semester break would come fast

more than anyone else, I don't know why, I just wished.

Yet,

I'm having second thoughts now.

Why am I being so contradicting here?

I've planned many things for the coming holidays

and one by one

they're turning their back on me.

Nice.

The Penang trip was cancelled because

my aunt Yvonne couldn't apply any leaves,

The Seremban/Melacca Trip was cancelled

because one of my cousin is getting married

and

Joanna's friends couldn't make it as well.

I hope I'm still getting my driving lessons this holiday,

otherwise it'll be a big waste of time.

My hometown is nothing like the city that I'm living in,

although it did provide me the peace and serenity

that I've yearned all these whiles.

Homesick was never quite existing,

in my own dictionary, that is.

However, this illness has become a lil serious

compared to the last time I went back.

Maybe because I needed some love and sense of security

which only my family members could give.

Ah well,

It's just another year that's gonna end,

that's all.

I believe the coming days will be interesting and endlessly surprising

for me,

and I know it will be a great year ahead.

This is how much I love life.

I am still capable of smiling

and

nothing would make me frown, yet.

GOD is fair and just.

Take care everyone!

yeah i'm whining :P

2009-11-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

My left arm.
hmmm..
The whole limb actually.
I can barely play well with my left arm like this.
Thank GOD I don't play much with my left arm.
Sigh.
Why???
Why muscle spasms now???
Owh... that includes my right feet and my right pinkie. meow.
It hurts whenever I hit the "c" note like four times in a bar, and there's like four bars.
TT_______TT
And........
Both of my shoulders muscles.
Le sigh.

However,
That means I'll have to rest kaw kaw during this sem break. :D
Me eez looking forward to my sem break! wee~
Okie I'm done with my practice....
So I will turn in earlier today.
Sigh. Sad. Pain. Tired.

But me eez having fun with samba, despite the fact that it's really hard to get it right.
Yum samba~! X)
It's 2 days away! (Performance studies) oh wait, 1 day away! aaaaahh!!! *PANIC*
Hmm.
Yeah.
I can. I can. I can.
PRACTICE~~~~~

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧

2009-11-23T10:29:00.000+08:00

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧......

1.很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。

他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若

離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。

妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。

2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，

令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，

說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。

八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。

3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。

當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起

的是他交往八年的前任女友。

為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，

他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。

4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。

喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；

你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；

你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。

戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，

所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。

5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任

感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不

是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一

個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的

愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。

等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上

有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，

可是他娶的卻不是她。

這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？

6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結

婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結

婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃

了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少

一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，

到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑

假，等當兵的人。

7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，

如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金

子，有了一切再結婚。

現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，

他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許

下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。

就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再

結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。

因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？

有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期

限，青春是女人的天敵。

如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的

黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫

襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼

工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男

人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。

遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他

認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。

8. 也提醒各位男士，

如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一

起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，

否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但

身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。

真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......

one of those discoveries

2009-11-22T16:34:00.000+08:00

I've been reading the blog posts from my old blog
and
honestly, it was fun. :D
I don't know, it's like you're taking a break, and start looking back,
to see what you've done and what you've been thinking.
Most of it was pleasant, and I have found some answers to my unspoken questions.

Was a lil emotional before I saw this,

"Always believe

that

you are going to get

what you really wished for.

Wish for the good.

Think positive."

And I felt so much better.
Mit tiefer Dankbarkeit!
minna san. :D

In a christmas mood! :D

2009-11-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

Ohohoho.

Don't ask me why, I'm sooooooo in christmas mood now.

Hehehehe.

It's especially when I am listening to christmas songs,

classic ones of course :D

Me eez feeling very merry!

I don't need to wonder why

as I know every day gets better

every year gets better too!

I miss those days with those darlings.

23rd Dec 2008

24th Dec 2008

25th Dec 2008

The best christmas I've ever had, honestly.

And I want another couple of christmases with them again.

Miss them very very much. :(

You know,

the difference of spending time with friends and family

during festive season is very apparent.

It's about to enjoy yourself in such a merry event,

in different ways, that is. :)

However,

nothing beats the way of celebrating christmas

like the picture above.

It's simply heartwarming and pleasant

in every way.

My dream christmas. aah~

*waltzing into my winter wonderland jor*

It's all right.

I know this year will be great as ever.

*singing*

December~ December~ December~~~~~~

and
dancing to the christmas carols... :D
*giggle*

till then,

cya world!

Meow :)

2009-11-21T17:06:00.000+08:00

I woke up around 12.37pm.
So I didn't go for the swim, decided to postpone it till later at 6pm.

Turns out......

it's raining after all.

DEMO!!
Daijoubu dayo. :D
I have Special A *thanks to yingying ♥*
and some practice as well.....

Anyway, I shall swim tomorrow, if possible. Heheheehe.
Can't wait for holiday. December!
Os!

You reap what you sow

2009-11-20T23:53:00.001+08:00

Heh.

I guess I still need that trip after all. And another one after that. :D
To keep my mind off of everything that I'm involved right now,
it's absolutely necessary.
One month should be enough, I guess.
Thank you family and friends for all these. Sigh.
I was really over my head and couldn't think through of what should be my priority.
Some certain mono just shouldn't linger my mind.
So, just shake it off and move on after that.
May you reap what you sow, mono. :)
That shouldn't be my problem anymore, it was never mine from the beginning after all.
I'm merely choosing a better path and have better mind, in order to have better future.
Just without you.
It's nice to meet you, though. :)

====================================================

I wonder if I should go for a swim tomorrow morning.
Hope there will be a great weather tomorrow. hehehehe.
Oh, I just came back from a movie, "A Christmas Carol".
It's more than movie, more than just a life lesson.

One must be contented with what he has now, and share with others who don't have what he has.
Love may not be mutual, but be satisfied of what you are able to give and able to receive.
Selfishness will not bring you far, but kindness will give you more than you ever desired.
The world will never come to an end even when you're against the world by yourself.
However, you're never really alone. Just keep that in mind, at least you won't feel so helpless anymore.

I'm glad, again.
As I'm always telling myself that it's okay, I'm gonna be fine.
I can do this, for my own sake, I can do this.
December's coming, Saaaaa~~~~~~~~ :D
Till then, bye world! :)

me eez not feeling good NOW

2009-11-20T13:02:00.001+08:00

I don't like stress.
I mean, for most of the time, yeah.

It makes me feel like shit.
It made me wanna curse
and throw tantrums to random people.
It made me feel sleepy in the end, making me feel as if I'm escaping from my current situation.
No time to worry for my aching shoulder,
no time to feed my appetite because I'm simply not in any mood to eat.
What in the world is going on now.
I'm like this all because of stress, not worth it, I know.
But it's hard to control your emotions when you're under stress, okay?
Oh maybe i know, it's because of something that is going to happen,
in fact, a lot of things are going to happen within 2 weeks time.
Sigh. All because of the procrastination and my laziness durh.

Enough crap.
I'm leaving, and going somewhere I feel like to.
At least I won't feel so stressed out when I'm on a journey to somewhere.
There will always be songs playing in my head anyway.
Take care.

All smiles!

2009-11-19T10:26:00.000+08:00

Good morning, world!

Though I didn't have enough sleep last night

*slept at 2, woke up around 9*

I feel like it's a great start of the day already!

Yeah..

I've been watching Gintama since last night

and

it's been a really great company,

that entertains me with its great sense of humor.

Hahaha. okie irony.

But still,

it's been good and I've been laughing

like nobody's business.

Plus,

I can finally play

Bejeweled Blitz without any worry

of unable to finish my projects

because it has ended

YESTERDAY!

However,

I'll still have to practice a lot

for my coming exams.

gah.

Never mind.

Enjoy for a little while,

then practice.

I'm all smiles!

I don't know why

but I'm happy about it.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Though my holidays

are what I've expected since the beginning of the year,

I shall continue with my plans

and

try to explore more stuffs

that I couldn't do

when I was "busy" with my college's stuffs.

Hehehe.

Now that it's almost over,

oh wait,

I should rejoice when it's totally over,

when I don't have to wake up early every day

just to get to college.

Sigh, there's so much changes,

I need to change my route to college,

have to get to somewhere else to go home,

instead of waiting for buses anymore.

No worries.

What needs to be changed, shall be changed.

And that applies to someone as well.

Though it would be worse than before,

I shall never be bothered by this

because none of them was worth it.

So, think of the future.

Future's always better

and I'm doing my best to realize it.

GRIN MORE PEOPLE!

GRIN!

Ame•suki

2009-11-18T19:51:00.001+08:00

I wonder,
since when I fell in love with the rain.

I used to loathe it, a lot.
Whenever it rains, I groan.
Rain to me, it's almost devastating and it gives me the blues.
People who know me, would say that I'm a "typical cat".
Hah.
Well I'm not gonna deny that fact, that I used to hate the rain, or maybe I still do, but just a little.

Last weekend when I was on my way home from Times Square
(I went there for the Anime Hanabi Festival)
and apparently I missed them all. lol.
Well, there's always next time. I hope I won't miss it again, never, again.

The point is, it was already raining cats and dogs outside
and it was difficult for me to go home with weather like this.
However, somewhat lucky I may say,
the rain became smaller and it was drizzling for the rest of the night.
I was walking in the rain, listening to Paramore's songs through my cellphone,
and for that moment, I felt really good.
It's nothing like other feelings like walking under the sun,
which is a totally different thing *obviously*
or walking on the streets.
Walking in the rain, in anywhere, it's the same. The time and place, doesn't really matter.

It was so natural and relieving
when I felt the raindrops on my face.
Singing and enjoying the nature by the road,
while waiting for a cab to get me home because nobody was available,
that was absolutely refreshing.

And today, I know somewhere in my mind that today would rain again, because of the monsoon.
Obviously I've totally forgotten about it and got myself wet because of the rain.
But, that was nothing. I asked for it. I wanted the raindrops keep falling on my head.
Because I enjoyed it.
This sort of desire, is none like other and I actually liked it.
Well, the funny thing is, there were absolutely nothing going on my mind
when I was walking in the rain, no melody, nobody, nothing, nil.
Maybe I'm just too tired. Yeah. Due to the last-minute projects, I blame myself for that.
But still, I love it. Hahahaaha.

I still love the sun. I do.
But the rain, it's surely different now.
I'm sure, that I don't hate it so much anymore.
Another evolution, I see. Hehehe.

By the way, I've finished my projects, and now I'm left with my performance studies
and my piano exam.
Have to practice a lot.
and to listen a lot to swingy music. Yeah whatever it is.
I have to get them over with and start planning my holiday properly.
Don't wanna waste it like previous semester breaks which I promised myself the same thing too.
LOL.
I can do it.

Take care peeps.
I'm not sick anymore, so don't worry.
If I'm emo, just let me be, okay.
:)

:: p/s ::
I wonder why did I dream of him,
it was totally random.
And I felt a little different, toward him, that is.
Maybe it's just me.
Okay. It's just me.
Btw, it's not "him". It's someone else. hahaha.

Yeah, try imagine that man is ME

2009-11-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

Holy.

I just remembered

that I haven't practiced with my band members

for my next Piano exam,

*MY JAZZ PIECE! MY FRIGGIN JAZZ PIECE*

which is ... 2 weeks later.

Holy holy holy.

I only realized that

when I was doing my arranging project.

Holy... cra...

Urgh shut up.

Get back to work.

Going to college tomorrow

and get the rest of them done.

I hope I can.

Geeeeez!

I want that.....

2009-11-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

I mean it.

It's getting more and more frustrating

when I really needed that kind of keyboard.

No, not that colorful keyboard you see from the picture above.

But,

the 88-key midi controller, or keyboard,

whatever that gives me the freedom of playing

the melody lines in my mind

instead of

struggling by pressing the

"transpose" button

on my 25-key midi controller

over and over again.

It's really annoying!

So, don't blame me for making my song

sound so "rigid" or

whatever terms you can think of.

AARRGHHH.

I have composer's block?

Maybe?

Grrrr.

Learn something every day :D

2009-11-11T14:45:00.001+08:00

I love colorful stuffs

just because I love the sight of it.

And then

I came across with this website

at facebook,

that was shared by Syat.

Thank you!

It's a website full with random stuffs

that you can actually learn

something different

every day.

Plus,

with cute comics and colorful backgrounds,

you'll never get bored of it.

Click here

to satisfy your curiosity!

Enjoy yourselves

:: p/s ::

I'm so glad

and happy

because i've been listening to

"The Holiday" 's movie soundtrack

for days.

And it really made my days happier than ever.

Hans Zimmer is brilliant. :)

A wake up call

2009-11-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

You know.
There are moments that you feel your heart touched,
even though it's sudden and short,
you can still feel it, and actually let it linger in your heart
for as long as you can.

The feeling that I felt earlier, even yesterday, is still here.
It never fades, and that I am truly amazed.
I never realized how music can really touch my soul like that.
It's really overwhelming.
To me, it's like a revolution of something.
Perhaps, almost everything about me
and I'm still on my way to discover what has been hidden inside of me.
That music, is inspiring and revolutionary indeed.
I know my ups and downs and I'm actually aware of it. Kind of surprised, but yes I feel great
that I know about the things that I've been through, or still going through.
Hehe. It's almost like a wake up call.
Thank you GOD, for answering my prayers.

I am truly happy and am really glad that I always have GOD by my side, and in my heart.
At least, I don't feel like a lamb which has lost its direction.
That's good enough.
:D

la verdad

异性之间的友谊确是存在的

From facebook

Blackheads problems? Here comes the "rescue"! sort of.

生活常识

"You and Me" by Olivia

I don't really wanna talk about it

男人•女人

Oh I finally update!

觉得做人累了就看看.....

人，长得漂亮不如活的漂亮

No funny comments allowed dudes

My brother, Benjamin

没有合适不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜

"A Love That Will Last" by Renee Olstead + random thoughts (5)

random thoughts (4)

Daorae+music talk(1)

"Bicycle" by Caroline Lufkin + Hello again :)

*PANIC!!!*

Exercise is fun!

some manja moment

bonne chance pour moi

Hello! :)

FIGHTO!!!

Huggies

One thing at a time

Spare me, please...

Just ranting(1)

What will come in the future, it will come.

胡说（1）

surreal

"OH YEAH" by 盧廣仲

I am yet happy enough

31, Like any other :)

Random thoughts (3)

In turmoil...

Smile :)

Right, it's all

Random thoughts (2)

Just grin :)

Few of my best days of my life :D

Gumption

Everything's right :)

Random thoughts (1)

A "lil" stressed

You only live once

Me eez HYPER! :D

not a misguided ghost

yeah i'm whining :P

男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧

one of those discoveries

In a christmas mood! :D

Meow :)

You reap what you sow

me eez not feeling good NOW

All smiles!

Ame•suki

Yeah, try imagine that man is ME

I want that.....

Learn something every day :D

A wake up call

PANIC!!!